Sapnap3,
It took me a long time to finally arrive at this moment in time. I’ve been through so many complicated relationships that I finally made a decision to seek help. I would suggest that you go through therapy and see what is the root of your problem. From what you have told me, it looks like we have a similar cause that led us to seek love in all the wrong places. I am also going through energy work. It’s called Polarity. It’s a combination of Reiki and acupressure. On a subtle level, we tend to store what we believe in our bodies. So, I’m trying to clear it out of my system.
Also, we truly have to love ourselves for who we are. I’ve finally accepted the face that I am “who” I am and it’s awesome to be me. This self love is the key to changing what we project out to people. Until we do this, then people with “issues” will continue to show up.
You will get there. From what you have shared with me, any guy would be lucky to have you in his life. You have to believe this as well. Email me if you want to chat: jchang436@gmail.com.
-Joe