I’ve been fighting with myself for a while about what I did when I was a kid. This haunts me to this day and I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to tell my mom so bad but I don’t know how I would even start to tell her. This thing lingers and destroys my happiness everyday. It won’t let me become the person I want to be. I feel as if I’m trapped and won’t be accepted if I ever tell anyone what I did. I keep telling myself that I’m a different person but it’s not helping. It’s the first thing that comes to my mind when I wake up. Sometimes I look forward to sleeping just to forget. I just pray things get better and that I’ll build up the courage to tell someone and be happy again. I lobe distracting myself with friends and hobbies but once I’m all alone my mind just constantly reminds myself of my past. This traumatic thing I did has also caused me to have lots of intrusive thoughts or unwanted thoughts. I just really hope I can one day be happy and live life without looking back ever again.
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