Hey Linds,
First of all, thank you for opening up this discussion and being open and honest. I’m writing, not with advice, but to say that I am in exactly the same situation as you. Sometimes it helps to know that you’re not alone on the path of rediscovery 🙂 As you know, when you are in a relationship with someone for 7 years, everything you know about the world and yourself is based on life with your partner. The world is so much bigger than I ever thought, and just as scary as it is liberating. I applaud you for having the courage to go out on your own! I’m not quite there yet, but recognize what a huge step that is. Give yourself a big hug!
I know there is a fine line between allowing the universe to direct us on the right path, and taking action and initiative for what we want, but part of me is trying really hard to have an open heart and mind (however broken it may be) and let things happen as they are supposed to. For me, I think the first step to recovery is to learn how to love myself, and yes, be okay with the fact that I’m at home alone on a Friday night, ha! I have some work to do!
Anyway, sending good thoughts your way! Big hugs.
“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” ~Lao Tzu