You are not the same, that is the difference. Though you feel shattered right now and feel you are going through the same thing, the difference is you are stronger than before. Every time you get knocked down, the result is more personal strength. It can feel like a cruel test, but it’s actually a lesson to teach you about how strong you really are and about the depths of trust. Think about why you cried after your first time sleeping with him, how subliminally you already did not trust this person’s character. This will lead you to analyse people differently than you had before and help you find someone you feel more trust for. Look closely at a persons character when you move forward. Do they make you feel scared, nervous or like you have to work to hold on to them? Life is fast paced enough without having to worry about the person you love not loving you and supporting you. You will have clearer vision to see the distinction going forward.