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  • #381268
    Kate
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    Hi Teak,

    Sorry for the late reply!

    They would support me and protect me from the nuisance. However, many times I didn’t tell them what happened at college so that they don’t get hurt.

    The insecurities do pop out sometimes and do make me feel that there might be better people than me out there.

    Best,

    Kate

    #381122
    Kate
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    Sure! I will 😌

    #381119
    Kate
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    Hi Anita,

    Thank you for your reply!

    What all you have told makes sense to me and I’ll try incorporating the ideas you have given me to me.

    Best,

    Kate

     

    #381118
    Kate
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    Hi Teak,

    As a child, I was insecure of my looks and was made fun of or not treated well by other children at times. My parents really supported me but faced comments from my distant relatives. Growing up, I have tried to work on myself to accept the way I am but my insecurities pop up at times.

    Best,

    Kate

     

    #381094
    Kate
    Participant

    Hi Anita,

    Thank you so much for your reply!

    Yes, that sounds like me in terms of previous and current relationship.

    Kate

    #381091
    Kate
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    Hi Anita and all,

    Lately, I am having a set of complex emotions!

    I find it difficult to remain positive about my current relationship. My boyfriend is a great guy. He cares for me and loves me. But sometimes, I just feel a disconnect. I am not sure where is the issue and how do I deal with it.

    A little about my past. So, I have been in a few relationships and they didn’t go well. As always, the start of relationship is good So were they. There is an instance from my first relationship where I was dating this guy and believed that he would never cheat on me. We got into a fight when he visited me in my hometown as I was a little distant from him because a lot of people knew my parents. Having caught with this guy would have created a lot of problems for me back home. He didn’t talk to me for a week. I apologised to him so many times and tried explaining. We got better after a week but he would behave distant continuously. Could never feel the warmness from his end. After a year or so, we broke up. That was the worst phase of my life. One day, after 4 months, he texted me and we started talking again. While we were talking, he told me somehow that when we weren’t talking for 7 days, he started seeing someone else. And when we got back together, he broke up with that girl. And this really broke me. My belief system was complete shattered.

    In my second relationship, the guy was really critical of me. He would consistently comment on my body weight, height ( I was quite shorter than him) and looks. He would tell me you are not beautiful but your nature is good.  That really affected me mentally. I became too insecure of myself and was not at all comfortable in my own skin. I felt ugly and irritated all the time. I introduced him to my girl friends that time. There was this one time in college when he was crushing on this girl who was in my friends group. But after 3 years we started dating. So, I never thought that there would be any problem with all of us hanging out together. But gradually I started seeing their rapport building and that really made me think otherwise. After we passed out, we would fight a lot because of that girl. Meanwhile, this guy blocked that girl and later called her and said that I told him to do this which wasn’t true. This affected my friendship with other girls badly. They stopped talking to me and this really affected me. I might even be depressed that time. A few of my friends still sometime tell me that it was because of me that that girl stopped talking to them which really hurts me. When all of this was happening, I got in touch with a guy and he really made me feel better about myself. This was when I and my bf were together. Although we went out a few times but that was it.  Nothing beyond that.

    Now the issue that I face in my current relationship is I find it difficult to trust him. I feel scared that what if he talks to someone and falls for her. The other day we were just talking and he tells me that there are no girls in his team (work). I asked if he wants girls in his team to which he said it’s good to have a diverse team. He meant everything in a positive way but it’s me who’s not able to take anything positively I guess. Whenever, he doesn’t’t reply to me, I feel paranoid about what he might be doing. Yesterday, he said that he has a secret meeting. I asked him about it to which he said why do you want to know. I said like that only. Once he finished his call, he did tell me who was he on call with. I want to respect his privacy because he respects mine but don’t know how. While I am in that situation, I directly jump onto the conclusion that it might not or difficult to work between us. I am scared trusting him and myself. I really need some perspective on this.

    Thanks,

    Kate

    #380764
    Kate
    Participant

    Thanks Anita 🙂

    #380720
    Kate
    Participant

    Regarding this:

    But you “couldn’t take a decision” perhaps because you thought love should conquer all, that you will be a bad person if you end a relationship for financial worries (?)

    Yes! It was that concern and thought itself that am I being materialistic which made me think about the situation a lot.

    You can talk to D about replying to your messages when he is online: ask him what is behind the timing of his replies to your messages. The more information you have, the lesser your anxiety.

    I am not sure if it would be a great idea as it might seem like I am trying to intrude in his privacy.

    Best,

    Kate

    #380719
    Kate
    Participant

    @Anita – Thank you for your kind replies!

    Regarding this:

    But you “couldn’t take a decision” perhaps because you thought love should conquer all, that you will be a bad person if you end a relationship for financial worries (?)

    Yes! It was that concern and thought itself that am I being materialistic which made me think about the situation a lot.

    You can talk to D about replying to your messages when he is online: ask him what is behind the timing of his replies to your messages. The more information you have, the lesser your anxiety.

    I am not sure if it would be a great idea as it might seem like I am trying to intrude in his privacy.

    Best,

    Kate

    #380715
    Kate
    Participant

    Thanks for the reply TeaK, Anita and Bubba!

    I appreciate your honest replies and I somewhere felt that what I was doing was not correct but couldn’t help myself. I tried my best not to get involved romantically unless I broke up with my ex. Yes, there would have been better approach to what I did.

    Thanks,

    Kate

     

    • This reply was modified 3 weeks, 4 days ago by Kate.
    #380678
    Kate
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    Thank you Anita for your reply!

    Yes, I did accept D’s proposal and we are dating.

    I have another concern. Whenever I think of myself being in the same place as my ex-bf was, it concerns me. Had my bf had feelings for someone else, it would have really hurt me and wouldn’t, for sure, have known how to deal with that.

    Even sometimes currently, when D doesn’t reply me on time despite being online, I get scared thinking that he might be talking to someone else. Not sure if I am having trusting issues or I am insecure of myself.

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