Hi anita,

Thank you for the comments.I didnt thought about that!

Dear Anita,

Thank for the advice and insights!it makes me understand the situation better!

Will i be able to do quality psychotherapy on my own as it is expensive to see a psychology.feel free to correct me,I understand that in quality psychotherapy individuals are encouraged to identify any patterns of thoughts, feelings and actions that reinforce negativity in their life. Clients learn strategies for breaking these patterns, and they practice these outside the therapy sessions, often keeping a diary of their experiences.

In order to help myself,I shall keep a diary!

Anita:greatly appreciate the insights you shared!:)

Dear Anita,

Thank you for the reply and advice:)

1) I would plan to tackle these tasks bit by bit.

Sometimes I do get anxious,as I plan to tackle these tasks bit by bit.because I tend to worry that there is so much to do and I would not be able to finish it.

But over the years,I have learnt to focus on my present task and get it done.

However,when time is really pressing,my subconscious mind knows the task is urgent ,i find it hard to breathe at times and I find it hard to focus.

I am trying out to take deep breathes and to take a short break to the toliet if I do observe that I am losing focus.Are there other methods to control my mind better?

2) When I was a child,i was not good with my hands. I was clumsy and would often be critised by my parents that I am always so clumsy and cannot even do a small thing.

I felt very sad and did not feel good about myself. I remember myself avoiding to do things to avoid breaking something or to make a mistake.

In school,when tackling with exams,I always felt that I will need to spend 24/7hours studying,not to waste any single minute.I will always try to plan ahead what modules to study in order to be able to complete studying all modules.

I know I am slower than others in absorping knowledge, so I would spend almost 100percent of my time studying.I fear I cannot be fully prepared as I know I am slower than others. But at work it is difficult to spend more time understanding the issues as time is pressing. So I fear I cannot deliver.

I fear I cannot perform and did not want others to look down on me.

But as years pass,I know the fear of others looking down at me is a self critism. I can only allow others to look down on me if I look down of myself.

3) As I would be taking on a new job in the coming week,I am telling myself to stop fearing and just focus on the task.

I am hoping to use meditation to calm my mind so as to focus on the present. I hope I can breathe throught the challeges,face head on and dont avoid from the challenges.