Dear OGaR,

Me too, darling! Me too. I have made some poor choices, and now the mistakes are catching up to me. Lots and lots of folks are in this boat. You are not alone.
I’m trying to figure out how to STOP making mistakes and make good choices, but part of my brain really wants to do time-wasting or unhealthy things. I am wasting my life and I hate it.
I guess the best way to start is to meditate. Sit and be present. Breathe and be. Just start there, and eventually, the doors will open, right?
I am praying for you.