Thanks Anita for the feedback, I thought he really liked me for whom I am , I thought he was really a nice guy and felt that he was the “one”. I cared and even loved him and hearing him say that cut to the bone, his harsh words. I got mad and said awful things via text next day after breakup, I did apologize, I even asked him if he was sure and he said he was sure. The deceit is what is killing me, and his words, that shattered my view I had of him and all the good times have been overshadowed by his words at time of breakup. He has cut me off and we haven’t communicated in the last three/four weeks . I am in therapy to also address some issues, like he always said I was too clingy and didn’t trust him. I have issues from past abuse and relationships that I need to work on, I am going to resolve those and my self esteem/worth . Maybe I do not need to change so I can be better next time in a relationship. I keep hoping he would call me ,but he hasn’t, that’s why I need to work on my confidence/self esteem.