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Hi Sofioula,
I am happy for you for being able to form a relationship after feeling the same kind of pressures I still feel. I am much older than you but I can relate when you describe the anxiety. The anxiety for me was the same when I was 23 as it is for me now except I did feel more hopeful when I was 23. Some day it will happen. I would tell myself this and I believed it. It will, just happen, I believed.
I almost feel like as the years have gone by for me, that everything that made me attractive and likable also made me vunerable to being hurt. Instead of embracing my femininity, I retreated more and more into my room. I want that to change and want to embrace everything that makes up who I am. I want to stop hiding. I want to be comfortable being myself and knowing that’s enough..
Affirmations work really well for me and I am trying to get into meditation or I will be. I love that these things have helped you in such a positive way. I am sorry you are going through a break up but I am so glad to hear that your determination is working for you. Hope you are well.
Thank you for your advice. My attention is to focus on me and what makes me happy first before I can attract someone else to share my time with.
You also have a very blessed day tomorrow and thank you,Sincerely,
Lisa
Hi Peter,
I would think pushing people away we care about as far as people we know….I think I feel people I have known love me but do not necessarily like me. I am not number one or equal to others they love so if I can not have that than I don’t want anything. I guess that is how I have always been.
Yeah there is certainly risk giving love to someone new, especially if one has never felt being the most important person to the people that brought you into the world. You search endlessly for unconditional love but you wouldn’t accept it anyway because you feel flawed and in my case feel you do not deserve such attention.
Could I love myself with imperfections? Yes, loving yourself has to come first.but I have to work on that. You question whether being hurt by someone you love is a possible attribute to love? I guess I would say that to accept myself and my imperfections, which is vital to loving myself, would be the same for me accepting the imperfections in someone else and loving them…imperfections and all? In this there would be less fear of hurt and understand that hurt might inevitable?
You are right if I am understanding you correctly..if we expect perfectionism in ourselves we are most likely going to expect it from others. Creating a lot of pressure.
So hurting is a learning experience and does not define who one is? Being more open opens you up for love but also learning.
Love does or should support things that may not seem like positive things. But I guess balance is the word that comes to mind makes me think that one helps the other.
Developing a healthy relationship with love is my goal this year and instead of seeing it as “perfect,” maybe I can see it more clearly and not feel so afraid of it. It exists in everyone so it is not the perfect person I am looking for but my accepting of love for what it is.
Thank you Peter.
Sincerely,
Lisa
Anita,
Thank you! I wouldn’t have progressed to making this thread without your help and help from others who posted in what can be described as an anxiety filled thread.
Yes I want to explore what I said about pushing love away and putting myself out there and noticing my thoughts and how I feel and hopefully writing it down. I want to change my thought patterns.
I am sad for your experience pushing people away but I understand pushing everyone away. I do that very well. In fact the nicer one is to me the more likely I will do a very good job of pushing that someone away. I have often believed the people who do not think so well of me that I often think that the person who does like me does not show good taste. I know that is a terrible thing to say about myself but there it is. That’s how I often end up feeling.
Well I what I want more than anything is clarity. I want to realize what my thoughts that I grew up with were and whether or not they are really what was/is going on? I will explain better when I start posting what I am doing and learning.
Sincerely,
Lisa
Happy New Year!! I would like to take your advice Anita and start a new thread. I think I have said all I can say in this thread about my insecurities, frustration, jealousy, hurt….I am just going around in circles. I would like to make a more positive tone thread. I do not think I have concurred my negative feelings but I am having the opposite effect happen to me than what happens to other women. As I am getting older I am actually finding my moods easier to manage while other women are having mood swings I had 40 years of what they will experience for a couple now. PMDD helped ruin my happiness when I was younger. I became a different person and then my rational self was left to deal with the results. I hope I at least helped people suffering from this to recognize how one sounds when they are experiencing PMDD.
I want to start with what is going on right now and talk about and being more proactive in reaching my goals. I am very optimistic right now but I have not come up with a name for my thread. I will think about it today. It will be optimistic. I am very commited when I name something I am writing to try and stay with it. Will be back later.
Thank you Anita and everyone who helped me with your advice and kind words.
Lisa
I had a longer post Anita but I do not feel like posting it now.
It could be my hormones but I am overcome with fear right now. My biggest fear is being shown that I am not as important as others. Some think simply acknowledging the feelings of others who are not in thier bubble is a grand effort that they can’t imagine doing.
I keep “not posting” everything I want to say.
There is a lot of emotion tied into what I feel are my philosophical observations that it often comes out distorted and rambling.
Will try to post again soon.
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