I am not very articulate so I don’t want to say much at risk of sounding like an idiot. But I do want to say: you are not dumb. Based on your post, you do know how to express yourself very well and I think you have a lot of potential. If you were able to overcome this, if you were able to see life for how precious it truly is and how much we can make out of it, then you could help so many others in your situation. You can help those with mental disorders (which I, too, suffer from) who are suicidal and thinking that they’re good for nothing. You can help them realize that they are worth something, just like you are. You can turn all that pain and anger into something good. I understand how you feel that life is pointless, that you’re not useful and better off gone. I have felt that way so many times. The truth is that we only get one life. And our life is pointless unless we give it our own purpose. My purpose is to be as happy as possible and live with no regrets, no matter how awful the situations I get into can be. Since we only have one life I am determined to make the best of it even when everything else seems to be going against me. Honestly, other people’s opinions are irrelevant. Them bullying us and judging us only shows how weak and unhappy they are with themselves. It doesn’t reflect on us at all. Okay I know I’m getting kind of preachy here but please believe me when I say that you are worth something. You are so special, even if the people around you can’t see it. But I can see it.

I know you said you don’t have any friends but I’d love to change that. I also don’t have many friends as I’m a big introvert and find it hard to connect to people. But I would really enjoy having a friendship with you. I think we could help each other a lot on our journeys. If not, I totally understand. Please just remember that you are special and you are worth it. You only have one life and once it’s gone you don’t get a second chance. So please be strong and fight for the life you have.