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  • #161206
    Lucy
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    Dear Tyler,

    I am so sorry this happened and you are in such pain. I think it’s healthy that you have accepted this is the root cause of all of your pain. Forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made now that you are willing to look within and see the reasons why they happened. This is the beginning of your healing journey. Speaking to someone would be a massive start and would help you with future relationships.

    You deserve to be happy. You deserve to heal and move on. Practise meditation it will allow you to learn how to let negative thoughts pass by without giving them energy which can result in a snowball effect of more horrible thoughts.

    Thoughts are just thoughts, what matters is the present moment and that’s what you must focus on. Read the power of now, this will help you.

     

    Lucy

    #161204
    Lucy
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    Thank you so much Elaina and Peter also! This has been extremely helpful.

    Sending love to you all.

    #161200
    Lucy
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    Dear Anita

     

    i think that make so much sense. I haven’t told my current boyfriend no. My best friend is a man, and he was supporting me throughout this relationship and he doesn’t think too kindly of my ex.

    I don’t really know what the closure is? Maybe just accepting that it’s ok to still care for people who have hurt you? Even if they aren’t sorry.

    In my head I always imagined him saying sorry to me and it never came. It was almost as if he was enjoying the times he has ignored me or hurt me after we broke up. For a longtime he tried to get back together and mess with my emotions when I was trying to move on so maybe he feels too much shame to approach me, or none at all. I think this is probably all linked to how I processed what happened with my father. I think I felt I deserved a lot of stuff that happened in my first relationship and maybe this is purely about the rejection I have felt from men in my life.

    now I have a man who is literally a gift from god! I don’t want to feel guilt over dreams and old emotions.

     

    • This reply was modified 6 years, 8 months ago by Lucy.
    #161198
    Lucy
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    Dear Annita

     

    thank you for sharing your personal experience with me, I have been there on the healing path and this emotional torture I put myself  through could cause me lose sight of what is important. Did you make mistakes as a child too? I make mistakes as an adult too but I am aware of them and I focus on learning from them, I would never intentionally hurt anyone.

     

    Thank you so much everyone. This has helped. When I feel sad I will re  read over the comments again.

    #160872
    Lucy
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    Thank you all for your helpful suggestions.

    I have thought about this and I think its possible that its because I felt rejected by him and so I cant seem to let go of the feeling of rejection. It hurt me really bad at the time because I loved and cared about him. Its frustrating because I feel I have wasted a lot of energy trying to let that situation go and it was over 7 years ago! I will be living my life happily but when I have a dream it brings weird emotions and I feel low and think too much about the past. I don’t know if its because I never got closure. I just don’t want to think about him anymore because I genuinely am in love with someone else and this relationship is way better in every way! I tried opening up to my friend but I get the sense when I do that he gets mad because he thinks I’m still holding on and in a way my mind is not letting me forget.

    #160770
    Lucy
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    Dear Louise,

     

    This man is an energy sucker. We all have them in our lives. Some of the energy suckers in my life are family, which makes it hard to not let this affect me. I think it was Oprah who said “When someone isn’t taking responsibility for their own energy, then we have to take responsibility for the negative energy we allow in our space.”

    If he isn’t going to acknowledge his issues, let alone change them, then the longer you stay, the more painful this process will become. Trust me when I say you will feel liberated for taking control of your life and not allowing other people to bring you down. You deserve happiness! And only you can create it.

     

    #160768
    Lucy
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    Dear Anita,

     

    No, I have tried searching her name into Fb and things like that and nothing comes up. She no longer lives near where I stayed as a child.

    I just pray I didn’t cause her problems growing up but the likelihood is I have. I remember several bad things that happened to me as far back as aged 3 and 4. Children were also cruel to me growing up. However I don’t think of them in any sort of negative way. I just hope its the same for her. I was very controlling as a child with my peers and this is probably because I felt so out of control at home. I understand all the reasons behind why I was this way but it doesn’t make me feel any better.

    #160762
    Lucy
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    I just want to say thank you to both of you for taking the time to reply and be so kind.

    I think the hardest part for me is because I work with children and I see how greatly they can be affected by negative energy. It’s almost as if I have the memories of someone else. Someone who was hateful. The strange thing is it never occurred to me I was doing anything wrong until one day it hit me when I was like 12. It was like a tidal wave of guilty realisation, I couldn’t eat, sleep and I was severely anxious. I remember my mum taking me to the doctors because she thought I was depressed. I was depressed, but through guilt from my own actions. I have never forgotten this intense feeling and anytime I feel guilty for something I remember this memory.

    As a young teenager it was as if everything reversed and I couldn’t even hurt a fly. I became so sensitive and so terrified of upsetting anyone almost at the expense of myself. People sometimes take advantage of this and if they do I feel I deserve it because I have memories of causing harm to others.

     

    I know now I should forgive myself, I just wish I could say sorry to the other kids. There’s one girl in particular who got it the worst. I saw her once as an adult and she looked sad and I immediately thought ‘I’ve ruined her life’

     

     

    #160384
    Lucy
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    Dear  Fearandshame

     

    I believe as children and young teenagers when we make mistakes, no matter how severe,  especially when we have no valuable guidance, we are testing boundaries and we learn. We could never fully understand the gravity of our actions until we are adults and it’s too late, and a wave of panic and guilt eats us up alive.

    the way you feel means you never want to make these mistakes again and you won’t. Feel the pain because the pain is what sets you apart from people who lack empathy or sympathy.

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