Yes. It was wrong choice. I know. I need time to be alone. I love to be alone – maybe more than be with my wife or someone else. Am i selfish? I was only child in our family and i lived with my mother without father. I always thought about myself as good guy. I cant do something bad to my wife and daughter. I cant be that selfish to start something with different woman while i have wife. All of my friends will abandon me for this act. And because of my religion i will be alone. Nobody will speak with me anymore. Who have same religion as me.

Can i shape that overhelming feel of love/energy for something better than cheating my wife? I am full of joy, happines and sadness. I know, we cant really trust to our hearts.

I dont want to be man like you described your husband. My wife told me: If i knew before our wedding about your taste for sex i will never marry you. You are such dreep. But she dont know i sleeping with her only because of her need. What really scares me? I really like her as very good friend. I like her because she is good mother of my daughter. I have respect for her personality but where is something deeper? Can my feels evolve into something bigger? I dont want to pretend something for my whole life.

I know, communication is my weakness. She is very upset on me and i have tendencies to stop talking because i just hate her behaviours. She is general. And she want to command me. Like her mother commanding her father. I am not the same man like her father.

I feel guilty about this woman from my work. Feelings overhelming me.