[quote quote=427736]Dear Lunaryogini: I thought maybe I’d share this with you: part of my c-PTSD consisted of endless sessions where my mother accused me of lying to her, even though I didn’t lie to her. She’d take any kind of (normal) inconsistency in what I said as proof to me lying for the purpose of hurting her feelings. Fast forward to today: in my first reply to you, I wrote that I read your June 2023 posts, and asked you about suggesting a polygraph test to your boyfriend. In my 2nd post, I wrote that I didn’t read the part of your June 2023 post where you wrote that he offered to take a polygraph test. In my mind, a voice screamed: she’d think that I lied! And I was distressed over it. I will explain the inconsistency here: I read parts of your 2023 posts. I didn’t read all of the two posts this morning. I read it all back in June last year. I have been a participant in the forums since May 2015, but deleted my account Feb 2023 and returned under a different account later in 2023. During my deleted time, I read all posts submitted, including yours. My mind is still trying to prevent my mother’s next accusatory and shaming session by locating where I was not consistent and trying to be exact in my wording. But no one, when speaking or typing away can be exact all the time or even much of the time, considering all interpretations and possible misinterpretations and like a lawyer, cover all possibilities in no uncertain terms. anita[/quote]

Hi Anita,

Thank you so much for your very thought out and thorough replies. It gave me a lot to ponder and think about. Thanks for your vulnerability in sharing your own experiences with your mother and c-PTSD. I think I was feeling very vulnerable and raw after having that nightmare about my partner, and did not handle it in the best way possible. Overall, I do trust him but I do have flare ups from having been lied to by him in the past. I definitely have some work to do on myself, as we all do. Thank you again for witnessing my post and wishing you the very best.

Hi Roberta,

Thanks for your reply. Yes, I do realize that I came into a relationship with a man still unwinding with his ex wife while I was someone with trust issues. However, like I said, we did and do align on a lot of things and I suppose the pros outweighed the cons for me. Looking back, I also feel as though I grew a lot as a person throughout that whole experience. Thanks again for your insight.