Thank you very much for your reply, I feel more light ,because i don’t wanna feel like the villant here. i have some updates ,my partner call me out the blue today asking me to come over to his house and I said I can’t , so I told him that we can talk later and he call at night I told him that I was studying and I can talk tomorrow person to person, I am feeling weak right now I don’t know if I will be strong enought ,to stay firm in my decision that took me 6 months to concrete ,I don’t want to fell like a alcoholic making false promisses to quit and never fullfill the promise…lust, love,unclean, weak , this are my feelings right now.