Hi Anita,

thank you for your reply and thoughts, and yes, i do agree with you that i would like to keep this alive, i also should mentione, by hooking up, i mean she met in one occasion a male through the said app, and confessed later to me.

i did have a conversation with her last week about this, and i tend to block my emotions when i talk to her in these matters so that i do not do any reaction that could be interpeted else way.

she was the one actually saying to me that she went out last night without my knowledge, and that she regrets it alot and it was pressured by her girlfriends to go out, she also mentionned that though she went with them, she could not stay in the club after she went in, so she went out to wait in the car in the parking lot untill her friends went out and she got home an hour and half later.
she made it clear that she did not enjoy it and that she regrets it a lot.
well on the other hand, i told her that she made her decision to go against my well and our agreement – as we agreed she will never do that again before- and that, although her friends forced her, no one forced her to wear clothes, put make up, start the car, go pick up her friends and go to the club, these were all her decisions.

my problem anita, though i am attached to this girl, i can not forget what she did in the past and that destroys the trust i can have with her.
hope this gives you an idea of whats going on, i honestly think i could forgive her but i will always flinge when i see somthing and will live in doubt for my futur days, and boy do i tell you it is not the greatest way to live a life.

Med