Jess I came across your post and I nearly cried when I read it! I have been feeling exactly like you and soooo alone and invisible! When I read your post I finally felt like I was a real person. Like what I was feeling was real. You expressed so well what I’ve been having trouble expressing. What I was afraid to express. I have tried in the past to express myself to the people in my life and it always end with me feeling worse. I hear you! Wherever you are I’m walking the same path with you and struggling with the same feelings. You are not invisible!!! Keep telling yourself you are a unique and beautiful person! If you feel the need to reach out to someone and share who you are and know that your identity will be safe and valued reach out here. I need a friend. I will listen sister! PEACE