Thank you all for your considered responses. I really appreciate you taking the time out to read and contribute.

Anita, you are right about the projections. I do in-fact think I am all of those things about myself and more. I might try something when I think those harsh things about myself and project them on to others. I will try to catch myself and say “You are projecting that onto them; you do not know what they are thinking”. You are also dead right about the wandering mind when not focused. These thoughts can come in the evening when I have nothing on, I’m alone at home and I haven’t particularly anything to do. They also come when I’m in bed and unable to sleep. I will try Marliv’s suggestion of Sudoku so I am focusing on something other than my unhelpful thoughts.
The superego/inner critic is an interesting one. It would be a difficult task for me to try and separate myself from those thoughts. If it is the case that the inner critic relates back to an internalized real life critic, my gut instinct tells me it’s my family. My teenage years were tough, emotionally tough and I felt no support from them at all to help me through that fog. I’m working very hard to heal the relationship with my family now and I am getting there slowly. To think that the type of behaviour I outlined in my first post could be related back to that is interesting. Thank you for your insight.

Marisa/Minhat, yes they are missing. “Just be as you feel like being. Sometimes that person is happy, sometimes quiet, sometimes sad” this line of yours has stayed with me for the past week. At some points throughout the week I was feeling truly sad and instead of what I usually do, I just accepted the fact I was sad. There was relief in this as I wasn’t putting pressure on myself. So thank you for that.

Marliv, ‘at one time when I was prone to falling in self-distraction ways of thinking, I actually did Sudoku’ I bought a Sudoku book to try this out! I imagine this will come in handy when I’m alone in the house, as I mentioned above this is the most time when I start to over think. ‘Do you remember everything that has been said to you by every person’ you are absolutely right!! I defiantly do not! I can barely remember what my co-workers and I talked about yesterday. That’ll be something I will keep in mind. Thank you.

Lucy, it’s so comforting to know that some else feel the same way I do. To know I am not alone in this means alot. Thanks so much for replying.