First be thankful you are still alive despite the tough times u going through, because i believe the fact that u re still alive is a sign that God is not tru with you. Hold on to that nd start looking at the positive side of life.Open a new chapter for ur self nd try to make a bold step day by day leading u close to where u want to be and what you aim to achieve, search within u for the strenght especially with d people u love your daughter should b a source of inspiration to u, u want to b there for her to meet her needs and want, so for her u pick up ur courage to stand up on ur feet once again. Go out, apply for jobs, dont give up, pray hard and soon God will smile on u wen u least xpect.