Thanks to you all what each of you has said really helps. Its amazing how in a day the mind can turn itself around and think more positively through feedback people give.
It is more the detachment from the relationship that i miss rather than what we had as i realise that it wasn’t making me happy.

Although now it is over I keep having feelings of anxiety which occur mainly at night, thinking at 35 my life is not as it was going to be with him. I had such a feeling of being home, settled and a life in front of us and the thought of going it alone again makes me feel heart palpating anxious which i have never experienced in my life.

I know when settled in the new city where my new job starts this will reduce as i start living again doing activities.
I think you are right moving on and doing such things whilst giving yourself treats is the key to it all.

I hope you all in time can move on too.

I love the idea of seeing it like a play JoJoe, a chapter of life, lesson learned and recovery before the next one begins again.