Ennui: “Boredom brought on by a weariness with the world. Lethargic disappointment, a preoccupation with the fundamental emptiness of existence. Nothing matters, so nothing rouses any passion.”

Honey, I was exactly where you are for basically the entire 2019; I know deeply what you speak of.
After years of spiritual awakening, and unlearning everything that I was programmed to believe in growing up, life lost all of its meaning. Nothing made sense anymore, and every search for truth and understanding ended at a dead end. I became deeply frustrated with the lack of answers, and eventually came to believe that life, is meaningless. As well designed as Reality is, there’s no rhyme or reason for any of it. This led me to Existentialism, which if you don’t know, is a philosophical theory that basically says there’s no inherent meaning or purpose to reality, except the ones that we come to know personally. An Existential Crises occurs when you factor in that the world is a scary place, and that we will all die. So since death is inevitable, what’s the point in trying to really do anything with our life anyway?

The boring and repetitive nature of reality, along with the monotonous, mandatory responsibilities of day-to-day life are more-than-likely 2 major things that’s responsible for your drained energy. The other major thing is probably your thoughts and feelings.

If my assessment of your situation is at least close to right, then Honey, you are currently challenged with changing your thoughts and attitude towards life. You have to practice staring the meaninglessness and fearful aspects of life right in the face, accepting them, and choosing to live despite them! This won’t be easy, but if you can manage to consistently practice changing any toxic thought-patterns that support your Existential Dread, some light will begin to break through.  Be patient with yourself however, as you must properly feel and pay attention to your emotions towards life, in order to accept and heal them. Again, you must practice consciously choosing to live your life despite the fear and meaninglessness. Focusing on your hobbies and interest will help this a lot.

You won’t be healed overnight, but if you stick with I promise you’ll start to notice a difference. You’ll start to create your own meaning, and you’ll be able to do things and live life without needing to have all the answers to do so. You’ll slowly start to be liberated, and free of the extra weight of any despair. The information Ariana posted above is also very useful and will help you!
If you have any questions, please don’t hesitate to message me.

Choose to live!

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