Hello Anita,

I have had low self esteem since I was a child. When I was in elementary school I didn’t really fit in with my classmates and I was teased. I have always had a good circle of friends though, so I can’t say that I was lonely. But when it came to extra curricular activities I didn’t participate. I was always shy around new people. I think my low self esteem has always held me back from doing a lot of things like learning how to drive or sew,…or anything really. I use to sing when I was little, all the time, I wanted to be a singer. I gave up on a lot of things in life that I have enjoyed. I didn’t think I was good enough and eventually just convinced myself I no longer care about things.

I think that my fear of failure and or embarrassing myself is preventing me from doing photography with models at this time. I know that some additional training would be beneficial. I would like to improve my lighting techniques and learn more in that area.

Im also getting married in a month and its been so exhausting and nerve wrecking. It’s a lot of things piling up on me at the moment. I had to put my photography on the back burner at least till after my wedding.