Thank you.  Thank you for understanding and helping me see that what I feel IS valid.  Yes to everything you said!  I do think it’s the rejection part that is preventing me from moving on.  In writing this, it just validated that in fact, I’m hurting from being rejected.  When I do start talking to another man, he may be ok but when it gets close to meeting, I freeze up and run.  I think I fear getting hurt and rejected again.  FYI, my last relationship did so much damage to me emotionally and very much financially.  I think I need to go to therapy.  I’ve got to get this worked out. Thank you again for helping me feel not so cray-cray!!!