Thank you Saiisha. I will be in contact .. There is much more that I would like to discuss such as the links between karma and the boundaries needed to be set for others.

Johnpaultracey, to play devils advocate to your beautifully crafted metaphor.. Do you not feel in today’s modern world .. The 24hour hamster wheel commercial borg type society which breeds suppression and inert sensation of having moved too far away from our origins..

Which makes the realisation you speak off acheivable only to those who have the motivation and will to embark on journeys of self exploration and reading and considering (mindfulness) … As many do not choose to embrace this virtuous way of living .. It is only made available in snippets to be sold in the form of the aforementioned gurus and institutions..

What I feel keeps me from achieving the zen/chi/yogic baseline reading is the interference from the over population with no direction around me.

I am sorry to sound negative .. This is clearly something to work on with in my own assessment of the world around me .. But that is why I post it in reply… To hear from the wise and enlightened. To be corrected

I certainly do feel like this is a concise way of putting my predicament! And thank you for replying so swiftly.

I feel that simply saying I feel out of line with my purpose sounds vague as I know my path is positivity and continuing on this little path of enlightenment .. It is the modus operandi I am struggling with.

I have looked at ashrams, gurus institutions such as the British wheel of yoga. I just feel over whelmed and to be honest it all feels commercial and detached from the reality I need to firmly become part of and feel energised in.. Not dependant on a “cult” (using the term loosely) co dependency..