Yes I am, not why I named myself that but people know me for my extremes.

Well, by the 2nd day of my 2nd job I have (I work 7 days a week almost 60 hours except lately), a new really cute girl was hired and we got along really really well from the start too, but she’s married with her husband stuck in India. We liked to roleplay at the job, she said we are like family and said I was handsome, but didn’t say that about the other dude lol. There is always…another girl when it comes to me. So if this Taiwan one doesn’t work out there will always be more because I always hit on women, even if it gets me in trouble (and it has). But I haven’t been at that job in a couple weeks, scheduling keeps getting messed up. Anyway I’ll message the Taiwan girl tomorrow, ask her when she will come back here because I miss her and wanna meet her (like she told me). I’ll find out if she likes me or not the way I think she does.

Ended up deleting my messages to her before she read them, so last message was her saying she is wondering what I said. Anyway maybe I could try? but not that into it, she will be 14 hours ahead of me. I’ll message her in a few days asking when she’s coming back here and that I wanna meet her soon still. But I am pretty sure she only said that because she was emotional at the time and it was an “in the moment” kind of thing. Basically told me she was emotional and crying.

Anyway the other woman called me up, we talked for a little bit. I think she was trying to change her voice to sound “sexy”.

Good end meaning that’s the end of us talking. Anyway I decided 1 more ettempt and said if we never see eachother again here is my number you can call me instead before you leave if you want over a day ago, deleted it before she read the message and asked how her trip is going here and messaged her earlier but it looked weird so I got rid of it. I guess she decided to ghost me instead, she’s been online several times already. Our texts were kinda heavy…like she saw an ex coworker and said she was missing everyone, she also said she was missing me and he told her to tell me that, which she did and that she wants to see me before she goes and that she’s happy to have met me and that she’s sad (to leave country and to not see me probably). Said I was super nice, I said so are you, she replied that maybe nice people stick together (obvious hint even if english isn’t her first language), she also said she’s turning into one of those people that cry because she was going and getting emotional and was laughing. She didn’t say she misses all of us and wants to see us again, she said me specifically. Told her to text me if she is coming in so she knows I am there and she said she will.

As for being good at moving on? hardly. Still pretty bad at it. But I refuse to be in that situation I was with that other woman.

9 I think? I don’t even miss that original woman lmao. What a mistake she turned out to be.

He would not want me to dwell on it so I am not dwelling on it. It’s time to move on with my life like he would want! I’ve had some weird things happen to me recently so I guess he’s watching over me sometimes, while other times enjoying all the things you can do in the afterlife (assuming it exists). Made me research a lot about afterlife, seems like there really might actually be 1, plus I sometimes ask questions on chatGPT. I cried the first 2 days, not really much more after that…he would not want me to cry so I don’t, he even told me I need to stop crying over him. Lots of new changes are going to be happening to me…going to sell his house eventually and have my own apartment. But I am going to look into maybe working on a cruise ship eventually? looks like it would be a nice job for me.

Anyway now that he’s gone, I think it’s time I also retire this thread like my previous one. If he’s still around I hope he doesn’t watch me much and has a lot of fun at the next place and I will go live my life. I got his ashes back home now, been talking to him (dunno if he was listening). See ya, until I make a new thread anita.

I am so horrible today, my dad died just before noon. Lost his brutal battle to cancer. He’s in a better place now, now I gotta figure out what to do and how to survive this. A councellor came in and told him me and his brother are going to be OK and that he is going to be OK if he decides he’s ready to move on, not much later he gave his last breath. I was freaking out when hospice called me…goodbye dad. 🙁

Thanks. Going to live with my uncle for a while when he passes (both their wishes) and will take it from there. Will also quit my job I have been there for a few decades, but it’s time to move on to bigger and better things. Going to be weird not having him around anymore…but I can’t fall apart.