After jas u suggested regarding the video which was lead by a lady in white.. and going through ur valuable feedbacks.. I felt that i should say sorry, or else it will remain in my heart and grow as a wound.. i also realized that he might be undergoing some personal issues or having difficulty in mingling with me thats y he misunderstood me… I dont know whether i am right or not..but i think that if we apologise it might help us to forget that particular incidennt..especially for people like me who are grown ups but still like a child who doesnt know to let go off or forgive themselves

after i get angry or emotional..i cling onto the sense of guilty..dont know why

i have to learn to track or sense before i get angry….
when i am doing a task and if i shift my attention to other task, i forget the previous one..so hard to recall..its happening for the past three year, sort of memory loss. i also realise that i am encountering this problem from the time i am in depression knowing that i have some psychological issues

i always (most of the day) try to go through all the threads advised to me from the beginning by Matt, TR, Jas, Moongal..as well i read threads of other participants also.. Thank u

Hey Moongal.. Dont be sorry yaar…
I felt bad just because u guys have come across the pain and situation which at present i am undergoing.. so i felt that i didnt communicate myself better, thats y u got irritated..
I am clear about the problems and the issues… as mentioned by u…
As TR had mentioned in one of his thread that my emotions control me and i dont know to handle or use them appropriately.

the last video suggessted by jas was useful, it was little bit more easier to understand..

need to control the fear and resentment ????

No dear… only the last few sentences were only hurting…
just think from my end..dealing with all these for nearly three decades is not an easy task.. even i know it will take time…
there are several people like me who have thousands of questions in mind… i didnt show any anger to anyone.. i am grateful to all those people who tried to advice me with patience….. Even u know well that this resentment wont go off overnight… I request pls bear with me

i just want to know what is that triggers me.. why is that i get angry or dull/ emotional before the occurance of the event.. why i cant it lightly

It was while doing the annual report of my organisation, that accidently saw the page Tiny Buddha and the remaining story is the part of this forum.

I would take this opportunity to thank lori …I initially emailed her regarding the problems, rather i would say the emotions I am going through. after having a conversation with her, she directed me to the forum. In a acceleration of getting a solution, i posted the issue as a thread to tracey’s problem.. I was wondering why no one responded..
later with much patience Lori asked to post as a new head.

On 25th I posted it as “can someone define love and show how to love myself and others’. To my surprise there were lots of responses to my post, today its 28th the fourth day. I am blessed there so many unknown friends who with their experience and valued suggestion are trying to bring me up..
Even though i reach higher heights of success or not…
I just want to learn how to let go off and i want to gain mastery over it…..

Good morning all..

Thanks to Matt, TR and Jas..You guys are truly gems.

Its been three years i am trying to control several of my emotions.. But how far i successful i dont know..
I have always been saying to myself that all this will take ample time to change..but after few seconds the mind becomes impulsive and back to the previous position. why is that eventhough i know all this truth and the required remedies, i am unable to bring difference..

Instead of crying why cant i stand up and do it…why cant i think and do a research…and find it out…Why is that i cant always remember and keep this facts intact in my mind. so that i can practise them daily.

As jas has mentioned i dont want to be a crying baby evenafter 10 years.. i want to contribute something of my own before i leave this world..

I said sorry within myself. i dont know whether its done or not.. i always wait for affirmation and wonders..
For every small things i get angry and later i feel guilty..

but sure whatever the situation may be..i ll do meditation till i reach that goal

jas..can i ask have u ever come across similar situation, if yes what u did for that?

all my life i had fight with my father bcoz of his peculiar nature and i dont have patience and ability to adjust..he is not like other father…when ever he asks any help or says something, i get angry on listening to his sound itself.. i always think of being kind tohim , but unable to why so….

even if i wan to say S as u said in ur above mentioned but still there is some doubts lying…why still everything comes up…how to unlearn things and remove from unconscious mind..

how to stop attraction towards guys and different b/w good and bad..how to open the door of wisdom which has been closed for years

mingling with others will it help to free myself