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  • in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #172975
    Ron
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    I find myself thinking of my new profile picture, and find I would like to have someone relaxing beside me in warmer temperatures. Winter, and Christmas will be interesting though. Its going to be funny to find out how hard it is to learn to use snowshoes.

    I’m even trying to figure out how the profile picture makes me feel connected, and seen by the object of my new affection. Yes, the woman who stole my heart by saying those words I needed to hear has somehow seen it. No tears in her eyes now, and that makes me happy.

     

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #172675
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    My emotions are mirrored in the world around me. If I’m cold my empathy brings me to cold. If I’m scared the same happens. Happy brings happy, and so forth.

    So, I work on my Grandfather’s trail. A 5km. trail that leads out to a point of land, and back. Perfect for a good run, and there are even spots to lay down to take a nap. If you don’t mind the occasional bear, or can appreciate why a tail comes in handy when dealing with mosquitoes.

    The downside. I may be becoming friends with the chipmunk’s, and am picking up their way of laughing.

    in reply to: Dating a heartbroken man who is pulling away #172673
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    Hi Cee ,

    Six months later, and I’m curious if he’s still pulling away. I just had a concept for consideration. If he pulled away and his heart is breaking, how would you feel if you pulled away? The same concept is what has caused me to struggle against my own way over my last heartbreak. (Sorry to be wordy. I get rhetoric speech-y at times) I end up just letting go of the parts that I need to, to get where I need to.

    Hope it helps, or helped.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #172225
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    Now that I’ve passed the worst of my brush with the other side I’m left with impressions that don’t quite fit yet. Yet! I find they fit, but till then I can’t say. Saturday October 7th I kept picturing someone stuck in the rain late at night. I can’t tell if the image is connected to someone else’s worry (survivors guilt), or the source of the image itself even though there is no connection to my own self (a random empathic connection).

    The nature around me tells me its happy I am here, protecting the smaller ones. I can’t help thinking of Kawawaymog lake, and the smallest pieces pointing me to look behind it toward wet lake.

    The advice I could get through was using white trees, and branches to point out where he was. My gift is slowly twisting as I try to sort out the how, and why.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #171799
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    A friend of mine once told me of her classroom pet, a hedgehog named Lychee, and how it took a good 15 minutes to get him to relax after class. This concept seems to be my way, however I can sense through my empathy when someone is digging through my past in an attempt to dissect a dream that wasn’t theirs to understand. In truth I’m relaxed, and get prickly when I understand everything is pointed at me simply out of curiosity. I see an each of my life in front of my eyes, and it holds a frightening understanding. For me, paranoia seems to travel through my life backwards till an understanding is reached.

    Completely turned around, the whole concept reveals my dream for what it was, a twisting of what was perceived. I worried I wouldn’t see my love again, and in doing so I missed my chance. My dream, fits together so perfectly and uniformly that I have a hard time understanding why I had two dreams at the same time, and what I experience, and see on a daily basis. My love is still there, and at times I can almost sense the tears well up in her eyes as she begins to understand. Every time I think of her I see the tears, and it tears me up inside. A cruel dream brought about by hate, and a desire to control an unknown idea.

    My friend would understand my hesitation, and my love would cry if she knew why I hesitate. She seems too good to be true which caused a ravenous interest in those around me. Their question, what finally caused me to stir, and why? I can only see what I know to be true, and to honour these two ladies I must wait till I can soften my heart to calm their tears. I never would have thought I would so easily read lips, or get whipped. I know I’m probably starting to sound obsessed, and need to let things be. However I think I’ll stay quiet for a while with this comment.

    Life is strange, and getting stranger. I want her to know I want to be there, but my path is taking me in a direction that may take some time to get back to her. Unless, however she wants to follow me down this unknown trail I seem to be conserving. My eye is set on helping those that feel trapped by what holds them back.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #171385
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    Sitting out this misty rain indoors, I understand my inner dreamer has awakened. So, I listen to my heart, and let go till I can see her again; I listen to my nature, and let it bring us together; I listen to my love, and let her rest.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #171331
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    A sympathetic death is the smallest thing I can do for love. I reave the parts of myself that could allow such negativity to occur, and allow myself to fall to my nature. In doing so, the process begins to point out the guiding principles of my life, and I learn where I can change myself for my love. I see no need to worry over what my love does in the hollows I have opened, because she spoke her words with a strength, and love all her own.

    I know my dreams sound strange,  but the truth is I can only see as far as I can understand. I see my dreams are many fold, and only she has gotten it right.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #171187
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    Sitting here beating myself up for being 2000km’s from my love. I feel I should tell her to relax, and do what she always does.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #171001
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    No depth tonight. Just surprised at my strange luck. I find it doesn’t help in the least, where love is concerned. I think I get the picture, and working toward love seems appropriate. So, I struggle against my love no longer.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #170863
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    Her eyes were the saddest I had ever seen, and I looked deeper to see that her tears echoed a loneliness like mine. I could not let her turn out like me.

    in reply to: I am like a bonsai in love #170521
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    A month for love, and all the words I can clarify. I can see the neat and orderly life that is required by her.My heart belongs to her words, and I hope mine reach her when she needs them.

    in reply to: My boyfriend hurt me so much and I can't get past it? #170073
    Ron
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    Hi again E, and Stephan,

    It just hit me, I was listening to flash gordon, episodes 2, and 3 from back in 1935, and both episodes, are exactly what I’ve been going through for the past month. If you can find it from Old Time Radio, give it a listen.

    I hope you aren’t to hurt anymore.

    in reply to: My boyfriend hurt me so much and I can't get past it? #169967
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    Hi E,

    Your story has a familiar ring to it. On June 21st, my life changed quite a bit, and not all for the good. The most beautiful woman said the most amazing things, and if I were so lucky I would’ve jumped as soon as I could have.

    I think I fell head over heels, Literally. I was stoned, and that didn’t help. I hit a second peak at nearly the same time as I saw tears fall out of her eyes. I don’t know why, but for the first time in my life I was speechless. This woman woke me up from a long sleep, and I can’t think of anything except to say thank you. I hope I get the chance to hear her say those words again everynight as we fall asleep. (Too much?) That and the lipstick.

    I have been looking so long, that I could swear I remember seeing a near exact copy of her, but with a slight ox eye. She cried to. Why am I so unlucky?

    I won’t give up, but I need to find a way to say these words to her before she forgets me too.

    RED

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