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  • in reply to: Inspirational words #444557
    Peter
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    Hi Anita

    I’m curious if you feel I’m suggesting that our betrayals aren’t real or that any literal separation of relationship needs to be justified? I am attempting to step past the notion of temporal relationship that we tend to project outwards…

    We talked of the problem of rumination. That each retelling of our stories is an act of reliving them often reenforcing the illusion that the past happening is happening now vice the reality that its the memories/labels/measurements that are happing now. To the body there is no difference between the happening and the memory of a happening. The danger is that we become attached to our story telling and its this attachment to that creates the illusion of distance from our natural self and so we suffer.

    My feeling is that everyone has been betrayed at some point in thier lives, probably multiple times, and oddly a something that connects us. I suspect betrayal is at the root of the divide and is very real. Just as even though the sun nether rises or sets the experience of it rising and setting is real, real enough that we measure our experienced by it. Awareness reveling that it is in the latter that we suffer as it separates us from the former. Stepping past a notion of ‘temporal relationship’ the “issue” moves from betrayal to the separation from Self.

    Early life betrayal is real and as we have explored, we tend to entangle ourselves and measure our experiences by it. Anthony de Mello suggests the task is to get back to The Reality where “Happiness is our natural state” – where the sun neither rises or sets but Is and We Are, we must drop something. My thought is that we drop language, and or hold it more lightly and in this way reduce the space/illusion of separation from our “natural state”.

    Aside: religion often unintentionally teaches that we must work and follow commandments and in that way become compassionate and loving. When the reality is that compassion is a natural arising and that from the natural arising such commandments aren’t required. Do you see what I’m pointing at? That the question of our betrayals being real or not may be second half of life distraction. We don’t’ need to fix our betrayals to get back to our “natural selves”. Awakening to the realty that we are already and always Are… the question of betrayal and justifications fades. Compassion and interconnectedness naturally arises. It really does!

    I’ve mentioned before the notion that the reality of each breathe being a “birth, betrayal, death and resurrection”. Birth a state of innocence betrayed, the betrayal, very real creating the illusion of separation from ‘Self’ and the suffering that results, death a process of detachment (not indifference) removes the illusion of separation, resulting in resurrection the return to what Is as It Is, as We Are. A rebirth of innocence…

    The word innocent is often used to mean a person of no knowing, or a simpleton. But the roots of the word mean to be free of injury or hurt. In Spanish, the word innocent is understood to mean a person who tries not to harm another, but who also is able to heal any injury or harm to herself.” – “Innocence is knowing everything (life as it Is) and still being attracted to the good.” ― Clarissa Pinkola Estés (Sound familure?) 🙂

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444530
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Alessa
    “Happiness is the natural state of little children” When I hold such words lightly, I feel the truth of them and wonder at those flashings of memory where it was so.

    Hi Anita

    Pondering the words that “everything is deeply connected until it isn’t” What happened between connection to disconnection? Language, thought, measurement… space created between thinker and thought, the thought separated from the thinker becomes other.
    The illusion of language and thought disconnecting what is always connected. – The sun neither rises or sets yet its rising and setting measures out out our day.

    the tragedy of an attachment is that if its object is not attained it causes unhappiness. But if it is attained, it does not cause happiness – it merely causes a flash of pleasure followed by weariness, and it is always accompanied, of course, by the anxiety that you may lose the object of your attachment.” ― Anthony de Mello

    The poet’s greatness is contained in his words; yet the study of his words will not disclose his inspiration.” – Anthony de Mello

    Surely, we must all have had experiences of those moments when the mind is absent, and suddenly there is a flash of joy, a flash of an idea, a light, a great bliss. How does that happen? It happens when the self is absent, when the process of thought, worry, memories, pursuits, is still. Therefore, creation can take place only when the mind, through self-knowledge, has come to that state when it is completely naked.” -Krishnamurti

    in reply to: Inspirational words #444429
    Peter
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    Happened upon Anthony de Mello today as I was pondering the notion of separation. the problem of man’s assumed separation from nature in relation to the notion of the separation of observer from the observed, the thinker from the thought… how this false sense of separation may be the source of illusion, maya, of suffering?

    “As soon as you look at the world through an ideology you are finished. No reality fits an ideology. Life is beyond that. … That is why people are always searching for a meaning to life… Meaning is only found when you go beyond meaning. Life only makes sense when you perceive it as mystery and it makes no sense to the conceptualizing mind.”
    ― Anthony de Mello

    “People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is actually done by the heart which first dictates the conclusion, then commands the head to provide the reasoning that will defend it.

    “Happiness is our natural state. Happiness is the natural state of little children, to whom the kingdom belongs until they have been polluted and contaminated by the stupidity of society and culture. To acquire happiness you don’t have to do anything, because happiness cannot be acquired. Does anybody know why? Because we have it already. How can you acquire what you already have? Then why don’t you experience it? Because you’ve got to drop something. You’ve got to drop illusions. You don’t have to add anything in order to be happy; you’ve got to drop something. Life is easy, life is delightful. It’s only hard on your illusions, your ambitions, your greed, your cravings. Do you know where these things come from? From having identified with all kinds of labels!”
    ― Anthony de Mello

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444396
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita and Everyone

    Reading Anita struggle to untangle anger, ‘mother’ and frustrated desire to help… I also felt frustrated knowing that at best we can offer support but that this task one walks through in their own way.

    An early memory, sometime in my twenties, arose… I can hear myself saying ‘family can’t help family.’
    I do not recall the events leading up to that realization… or maybe I do…

    The statement wasn’t about the everyday but about the deep wounds. Wounds often exacerbated by notion of family itself and the ghosts we each carry and project as family is the first crucible in which the self struggles to emerge. In trying to help family our ‘ghosts’ can’t help themselves from ‘playing’ and haunting, triggering old pains. Pain that only distance is capable of seeing…

    I wonder if in such moments witnessing is the role left to us, perhaps to acknowledge the ‘tears in things’… doesn’t feel enough. The Hawaiian ritual Ho’oponopono coming to mind as memory of family, mother, father arise… I love you; I thank you; I forgive you, please forgive me…

    I recently came across a Youtube video – Like Stories of Old – ‘Why We Can’t Save Those We Love’ that explores this notion. That in the stories we tell and witness we are not alone… Its worth watching

    Each one of us here today will at one time in our lives look upon a loved one who is in need and ask the same question: We are willing to help, Lord, but what, if anything, is needed? For it is true we can seldom help those closest to us.

      Either we don’t know what part of ourselves to give or, more often than not, the part we have to give is not wanted

    . And so, it is those we live with and should know who elude us. But we can still love them – we can love completely without complete understanding.” ― Norman Maclean, A River Runs Through It

    When I looked, I knew I might never again see so much of the earth so beautiful, the beautiful being something you know added to something you see, in a whole that is different from the sum of its parts. What I saw might have been just another winter scene, although an impressive one. But what I knew was that the earth underneath was alive and that by tomorrow, certainly by the day after, it would be all green again. So, what I saw because of what I knew was a kind of death with the marvelous promise… ” ― Norman Maclean

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444337
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    “seeing with the eyes of another, listening with the ears of another, feeling with the heart of another.” ― Alfred Adler

    Untangling…
    The Heart breaking
    Keeps beating
    How can this be
    The way of an open heart

    in reply to: What have you learnt from nature? #444308
    Peter
    Participant

    I love what Hermann Hess had to say about trees

    Trees are sanctuaries. Whoever knows how to speak to them, whoever knows how to listen to them, can learn the truth. They do not preach learning and precepts, they preach, undeterred by particulars, the ancient law of life.

    A tree says: A kernel is hidden in me, a spark, a thought, I am life from eternal life. The attempt and the risk that the eternal mother took with me is unique, unique the form and veins of my skin, unique the smallest play of leaves in my branches and the smallest scar on my bark. I was made to form and reveal the eternal in my smallest special detail.

    A tree says: My strength is trust. I know nothing about my fathers, I know nothing about the thousand children that every year spring out of me. I live out the secret of my seed to the very end, and I care for nothing else. I trust that G_d is in me. I trust that my labor is holy. Out of this trust I live.

    When we are stricken and cannot bear our lives any longer, then a tree has something to say to us: Be still! Be still! Look at me! Life is not easy, life is not difficult. Those are childish thoughts. . . . Home is neither here nor there. Home is within you, or home is nowhere at all.

    A longing to wander tears my heart when I hear trees rustling in the wind at evening. If one listens to them silently for a long time, this longing reveals its kernel, its meaning. It is not so much a matter of escaping from one’s suffering, though it may seem to be so. It is a longing for home, for a memory of the mother, for new metaphors for life. It leads home. Every path leads homeward, every step is birth, every step is death, every grave is mother.

    So the tree rustles in the evening, when we stand uneasy before our own childish thoughts: Trees have long thoughts, long-breathing and restful, just as they have longer lives than ours. They are wiser than we are, as long as we do not listen to them. But when we have learned how to listen to trees, then the brevity and the quickness and the childlike hastiness of our thoughts achieve an incomparable joy. Whoever has learned how to listen to trees no longer wants to be a tree. He wants to be nothing except what he is. That is home. That is happiness.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444307
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    Doing and Thinking cannot replace Being and Feeling – I need to learn to do that further. I am a beginner.

    Indeed ones doing, thinking, being, feeling ought to connected not in conflict. It is a work in progress for me as well… a beginner mind is a good place be as this isn’t so much a learning as a happening. 🙂

    Jung talks of four core psychological functions: Thinking, Feeling, Sensing, and Intuition and integrating them as a task of individuation. Funny as it may be it is the story of Cinderella I ponder when I think about the integration of the four functions.

    Similar to a dream interpretation each character representing an aspect of the psyche.

    Father having died representing Cinderella inability to act in creating healthy boundaries and the mother becoming stepmother representing the nurturing spirit turning against the psyche. It is no wonder the Cinderella part of the psyche finds itself in ashes.

    Cinderella the feeling functions disconnected from the prince the doing functions. (This is depression and when one finds themselves stuck. Something I know to well.) Being moved towards action and then “marriage”. I wonder if it isn’t also the marriage between the Eternal and Temporal… Also note that the magical or numinous moment that takes Cinderella out of the ‘house’ is not a act of will but a happening.

    Today the standard take on Cinderella is to discount it saying something like Cinderella shouldn’t need a Prince to “save and take care” of her. And we wonder why things are so troubling these days. Feeling separated from doing, being separated from thinking… celebrated as independence. A reasons perhaps why stories, even those of the wisdom traditions, no longer seem able to help us. (rant for the day) 🙂

    Anyway have a good weekend, hopefully the sun will be shining.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444298
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    I like your poem, especially the lines
    In quiet moments, I sit and see, The tides of thought, they flow through me.
    No need to fix, no need to mend, For all begins where I choose to end.

    free of time.

    I enjoy reading your posts and seeing what rabbit hole we will fall into. 😊 I also appreciate your vulnerability. Expressing the tension of love and old fear of being ridiculed… moving towards Love that transcends fear. Love that Is.

    Not easy being vulnerable ‘in time’, to love without expectation. Here again language becomes problematic depending as it does on duality. I like the notion of negation as a path.

    Clarissa Pinkola Estes – Skeleton Woman: “Love (temporal love) always causes a descent into the Death nature; we can see why it takes abundant self-power and soulfulness to make the commitment. When one commits to love, one also commits to the revivification for the essences of Skeleton Woman (live-death-life cycle) and all her teachings.” (Teachings leading to the Love, The attribute of the Eternal Now… one must do a lot of dying and untangling of such things like fear, shame…. as we are discovering through the dialog.)

    One of the things I like about getting older is that I discovered I can Love without the feeling a need to possess or be possessed by love. It quite freeing as you begin to see everyone as totally and unconditionally Loved by G_d. Everything connected and the table big enough for all.

    Aside note
    Clarissa Pinkola Estes taught me to embrace symbolic language. With symbolic language (we tend to forget that all words are symbols) reading a story like Cinderella becomes story about overcoming depression – the work to ‘marry’ doing and thinking to being and feeling. In Skeleton Woman that work is to ‘untangle and flesh out the bones’ face what we fear and, in this way, ‘Know’ Love.
    The reading of something like Genesis though lens of symbolic language is amazing. For me the wisdom of Genesis is a story of What Is.

    I use G_d as a method to show humility and reverence towards all things (Holy be thy Name-vibration-OUM) – that which is transcendent. As Transcendence – anything said of G_d, any naming or language applied to G_d must be unsaid. Similar to the negation of what ‘Love is not’.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444258
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Everyone

    I agree Anita I think this was what Allan Watts was getting at when he said “We seldom realize that our most private thoughts and emotions are not actually our own. For we think in terms of language’s and images which we did not invent, but which were given to us by our society (others)“.

    Unfortunately this form of communication and questing involves rumination so in that way is problematic. It has help me become more conscious of the impact and connection between verbalization, rumination and emotion.

    Other thoughts that arose…

    Just as the word tree is not a tree, fear, anger, as all such emotion when felt are not a word.
    Begging the question is Love a emotion?

    Anita wrote: “Krishnamurti: ‘To live without time is really to have this sense of great love, because love is not of time, love is not something that was or will be; to explore this and live with it is the real question.’”- And yet, people need our love right here and now.

    I think that’s the point Krishnamurti is making. As we explored in other threads the ‘to live without time’ would be to experience the timeless Eternal Now in which Love is the defining attribute and unconditional. This Love is not a word or measurement and has no opposite, it is, and we are that. To explore this relationship between temporal and Eternal Love from which all arise and return is then very much the real question. Which is kind of what we have been exploring. Love as such we would love here and now. (work in progress)

    I can hear Krishnamurti response to the call “that people need our love now,” – Yes Love! What’s stopping you? The man was very blunt.
    (The next question the questioner usually asked was how. To which Krishnamurti would point out that in asking how you have defeated yourself as this is a doing not a how’ing. The how also implying one is looking to follow and following you never are. “In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, the door is there, and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself.” – the Spinx spoke only once and said, the desert is a grain of sand and grain of sand the desert. Now let us return to silence.)

    For Krishnamurti love is not something to be grasped or defined, but a state of being that emerges when we cease to cling to what is not love. Love as negation, a journey of self-discovery through the process of negation, where we examine and discard what is not love (attachment, fear, competition, violence…) in order to arrive at a deeper understanding of what love truly is. A topic for another time?

    That said living in time as we do, as I do, even having glimpses of the timeless Eternal, to be loved here and now, and hear and experience the words sincerely… I understand.
    Now I hear a Buddha say be aware you are choosing, that this is desire and attachment… suffering.

    Alessa wrote: “We live between the past and the future. Always looking back and looking forward. I read that the emotions can spring from memories of the past. They are also stored in the unconscious mind.”

    One of the reasons I like the notion of living without time. Memory being an artifact of time/past (future is a projected past memory) and the act of recalling a act of verbalization recreating the experience and with that the associated emotions.

    Tangent: Something that struck me about most Creation stories is the use of language to create. In Genesis G_d creates by speaking. In the beginning was the word… ‘Let there be…’ a Creating from nothing to something that wasn’t. Adam (Humanity) made in the image of G_d is then given the task to name. Naming a type of small c creation that can only reveal what was already their (The blank canvas from which all things arise and return… a kind of chipping away at the marble to reveal the David within.) Naming often mistaken for big C Creating. (Lead us not into temptation of mistaking the map for the territory)

    The thought is that because we create, construct or constructs, through language if we are to free ourselves from the suffering that comes from verbalization, we must address the issue of language to which we have the tools of meditation, contemplation… where for a moment…

    I mentioned that I can’t recall a time when I wasn’t afraid. Having done the work, I can trace its origins and how this sense of fear/anxiety become embedded. Maybe in my DNA. It is a something that is. Perhaps if I enter a hermitage or some sort it might be possible…

    Now in the second half of life enough time has past where I can observe past stories and notice when I’m verbalizing them which is really me trying to fix them. That however doesn’t mean I’m free of what has become a ‘embedded’ sense, at least not yet.

    I sit quietly and feel without labeling I notice the place in the body, It sits between the heart and throat. I do not have to verbalize it to know that it is.

    The reality is that I live in time most of the time. Perhaps there are those that can transcend time, for me I’ve had glimpses. I am as I am. I am done trying to fix myself, more verbalization’s of memory, the past in the present that never is….

    Turning me off rumination 😊

    Until the next time… 😊

    I am after all who I am.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444233
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    “I don’t want to be afraid of my e-motions anymore, afraid of those energies-in-motion.”

    I can relate…

    The following is a free thinking exploration so might not make sense.

    I cannot recall a time when I was not afraid. My shame, anger and anxiety a byproduct of my fear.

    In Buddhism, fear is at the very root of samsara….
    We suffer more in imagination than in reality.” – Thich Nhat Hanh:
    Fear is pain arising from the anticipation of evil.” – Aristotle

    In the Lord’s Prayer I thought the line “deliver us from Evil” really ought to be ‘Deliver us from Fear’
    That if we were delivered from ‘Fear’ we could deliver ourselves from evil, shame, greed… all of which I would argue arises from the fear that ‘we are not enough’

    How can we stop being afraid of emotion?

    Is it fear of the emotion or our fear of our thoughts we attached to the emotion and or emotional event that we fear?
    When we are afraid of our e-motions what am I in fear of? Losing control, looking stupid, being stupid, losing out, not having enough, being enough, shame… ego? Ego yes but what else… Dying? Is all fear rooted in a fear of a kind of Dying?

    It seems to me as we discuses anger and other emotions is that there is the emotion and the idea of the emotion and it’s the idea that we fear, not so much the emotion.

    Returning to Krishnamurti, “It is the explanation, the verbalization, whether silent or spoken, that sustains anger (emotion), that gives it scope and depth.”
    Is it the verbalization’s and the memory of the verbalization’s that we fear?
    If the thought and thinker are one, then we fear ourselves not the emotion or story of the emotion…
    If there is space between the thought and thinker we fear the space of separateness – death?

    Krishnamurti : “To live without time is really to have this sense of great love, because love is not of time, love is not something that was or will be; to explore this and live with it is the real question.”
    To live without time would also mean to live without language as time is a measurement and all measurement constructs of language. We create our world though language.. To live without language would be to live without duality and without duality emotions (fear) flow and flowing fade away. (It is the act of naming that blocks flow.)

    Has a fear of emotions become a habit and or an addiction? If I stopped the verbalization and attachments to the words, what would be left to fear?

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444161
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    You captured my perspective quite well and thanks for linking to past post as I’m glad I’ve been consistent as I try to come to terms with what we are now thinking of as soul anger. The sense of betrayal is definitely part of that.
    I found this statement “I am talking about the kind of shaming that does not allow improvement…” difficult to hear/read. I’ve mentioned before that I feel undeserved shame is the orignal sin not disobedience, a theology that I wonder isn’t a sin itself creating the experience of shame and evil you written about.

    I was writing up the following before you posted.

    Contemplating on my experience of anger I recall the following experience.
    My Girlfriend had ended the relationship with me and a few weeks later I was laid off. I was upset, depressed and mostly ego angry, the usual stuff one experiences when such things happen. The anger as I recall didn’t have much energy associate with it and for the most part was directed inwards. The saying that “The most painful state of being is remembering the future, particularly the one you’ll never have” proved true. I had glimpsed a possibility of who I imagined I could be and a life that might have been but would never be. I was mourning the loss and the anger transformed general into depression. A story as old as time.

    A few months latter I run into my X and saw that she had replaced me and moved on. The moment hit me like a fright train and that night I tossed and turned. I was angry, really angry with no place to direct it. I could not deny the reasons my X gave for needing to move on. Love required the relationship to end. I even had to acknowledge that my past employer had little choice in letting people go as the project we were working on ended. Still, it hurt. Life hurt

    At about 2 AM it started to rain, and I got out of bed to look out the window and watch. As I watched I allowed myself to feel my anger and as I did it began to rain harder. I watched as the rain hit the ground and I wanted it to hit harder. I wanted to punish the earth. As I directed may anger into rain, the ran shower became a storm, lightning and thunder, the rain drops becoming noticeable bigger hitting the earth hard enough to bounce. Harder, harder… I became the storm, each individual drop of ran battering the earth, so satisfying… and the earth laughed…

    I fell back on the bed exhausted. I don’t know how much time had gone by and can’t recall ever being so exhausted as I was in that moment. The anger spent the storm passed returning to a light drizzle of rain. The earth unharmed and amused, I fell into deep sleep.

    The amount of anger turned to rage scared me. I recalled a time I almost struck my brother… when I woke in the morning I reached out to a therapist.

    When I think of that night, I wonder if something hadn’t broken, or if something was healed, maybe both. The moment turned out to be a turning point as this was when I “entered the forest where there is no path” to begin my quest. What was it I really believed, was I being true to what I believed, but more importantly what’s Love got to do with it.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444135
    Peter
    Participant

    HI Anita

    Your post touches on this distinction when you mentioned anger potentially masking “primary emotions” like fear or shame. While I agree that anger can sometimes be a cover for deeper feelings, I wonder if you might be dismissing anger when it isn’t secondary—when it is instead a direct and valid response to something significant.

    That is very possible. I don’t feel I’m dismissing anger as a primary emotion but can’t seem to relate to it as such… I can’t recall a personal experience where anger was the primary emotion. For me the primary emotion has been fear and or shame.

    When I look into my soul anger its at God (entangled with Parent early on in life?) or put another way, that Life should not be as it is. I can’t say I have a great relationship with Life and realize now how related that is to my soul anger…. a cover up for fear and shame (the original sin?)….

    A Christian mystic one said that the reality of each breath, the arsing and return, is that it is a ‘Birth, Betrayal, Death and Resurrection’. I know this as a truth even as I struggle with the betrayal part. Surly a breath should not be associated with a betrayal… perhaps that is the cost of consciousness? (the knowledge of good and evil – duality the temporal playground).
    I wonder if this felt sense of betrayal of each breath isn’t the root of all soul anger that we then project towards others, our Parents and that our Parent project back.

    Sorry going to stop the fall into the rabbit hole. Was going to delete… but no editing. 🙂

    I’m concerned that you my feel my response discounts your experience and realization.
    I love your realization and how you arrived at it. I am inspired to to explore my soul anger further and maybe get to a place I can say I appreciate you. I do know that it is though such experiences that we grow… but am I grateful for such method of growth… For now a healthy respect is what I can do.

    I can say that I don’t “think” I get angry for being angry for being angry anymore. Today when I get Angry the energy dissipates as I tap into other sources to engage with life. I can say thank you anger for getting my attention and not carrying me away.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444119
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Everyone

    When I reflect back I don’t feel anger like I did when I was young – That said I don’t think I can be friends with anger… I do is have what I feel is a healthy respect for it.

    “Anger has that peculiar quality of isolation; like sorrow, it cuts one off, and for the time being, at least, all relationship comes to an end…’ – Krishnamurti”-
    On the other hand, could anger expressed respectfully— perhaps even with empathy— strengthen relationships instead of breaking them? I feel much of our fear of anger stems from how often it is expressed abusively, both in personal lives and on a global scale?

    I’ve given this a lot of thought and can’t recall a experience where I have been able to use the energy of anger, which I picture as white or red hot, as not isolating.
    You asked if I was shamed for my anger and the answer is yes and no. When I’ve been in a moment of anger were there is hot energy of anger, I’m very much reacting vice responding to the situation and in after almost always regret my actions and felt shame. What I would call deserved shame. If you’re asking if I have ever been shamed for standing up for my self (setting boundaries which others may view as a acting out of anger) yes and what I would call undeserved shame.

    Seems I’m differentiating between the ‘energy of anger’ and a general notion of anger.

    Alessa mentioned that anger may be a secondary emotion which matches my experience. I feel that for relationship to be strengthened by anger its when the energy of anger is dissipated and primary emotion acknowledged. My observation is that it takes time to allow the energy of anger to dissipated before the primary emotion can be felt, acknowledged and addressed. It is indeed a strong relationship with good boundaries that allow for that space vice anger transforming into resentments and isolation.

    That’s the thing with anger it always transforming itself into other things. I’ve been watching a show called Family Law. The main character marriage and career unraveling seemingly due to a drinking problem. At the root of the drinking problem is anger at unresolved parental issues. This anger isn’t hot though, its subterranean. The character is complex in that her nature is loving and protective yet many of her interactions are reactions and so often cruel and vengeful only feeding the shame, fear and isolation that may be the primary emotions anger is covered up. She is in AA but has not done the work. (Actually, all the characters, even the therapist, have very little self knowledge and seem incapable of learning anything from their experiences, which keeps the show going. These characters are in serious need of shadow work as they are almost pure projection of their past pain. Unable to see their shadow they keep recreating the issues in their relationships.)

    If a relationship becomes stronger after anger, was it anger that was expressed respectfully, or was anger acknowledged, and the primary emotion addressed. I think I’m getting lost in language and the difference doesn’t matter.

    One of the online communities I connect with is centered on the notion of Contemplation and Action. Richard Rohr saw that Activists responding to injustice often fell into the trap of “righteous anger” becoming, if dressed up differently, that which they were against. Richard added the notion of Contemplation as a way of creating space to transform the energy of “righteous anger” to the energy of compassion. That one can be fully engaged in addressing injustice (motion, life) while centered in compassion (stillness, silence, love – the Eternal now from which all things arise and return – my interpretation). The idea of being still within motion, silent within the noise to bring us back to, and keep us in relationship.

    Thoughts to ponder.

    in reply to: Untangling Anger: How It Shapes My Actions and Life #444046
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Anita

    You have come a long way dealing with the experiences of your past and it.

    How has anger played a role in your life?

    Anger has been a difficult emotion for me as its energy is so strong that instead of getting our attention it can take our attention. Playing on your thought from a previous discussion that “the damaging emotions are the secondary and tertiary emotions that get in the way of processing and healing from traumatic past experiences.”.

    I don’t think we have many good role models for dealing with anger. Most of our cultures stories plots use anger to push the story along. The most common being someone ego/honor/sense of self being confronted. Similarly to your experience I associate anger with abuse and loss of control. A something to fear. Yet anger is also a call to action against cruelty against others and ourselves… I wonder if theirs two kinds of anger that I’m wrestling with here…. The mundane ego experience of anger and that which is of the soul. How the two get all mixed together to confuse things. (Your experience with your mother would be a soul anger)

    The question I ask myself is once anger has gotten our attention do we need to hold onto it in order to use its energy to move into action and or protect ourselves? (Why does the Samurai not kill the murderer of his Master/Self) out of anger? – If we use the energy of anger is their a danger we become what we our protecting ourselves from? Today world events show that to be a truth.)

    I have been investigating Krishnamurti thoughts on the matter.
    Anger has that peculiar quality of isolation; like sorrow, it cuts one off, and for the time being, at least, all relationship comes to an end. Anger has the temporary strength and vitality of the isolated. There is a strange despair in anger; for isolation is despair.” – Krishnamurti

    Looking into my anger… yes their is a fear of isolation, separation, shame, lots of shame… even when I was the victim of others anger and cruelty not deserved. That this fear leaves me feeling angry and depressed. An anger that instead of empowering me to action empowered shame.

    Krishnamurti goes on to say “It is the explanation, the verbalization, whether silent or spoken, that sustains anger, that gives it scope and depth. The explanation silent or spoken, acts as a shield against the discovery of ourselves as we are.

    Krishnamurti argues that any labeling create conflict – even the notion of non-violence is violence – so we must examine our labels to see what they may be shielding use from.

    This matches my experience as I tend to hold on to anger as a shield and or pretense of bravado. Anything to avoid dealing with the experience directly or looking/feeling week. I need to point out a deference between the first and second half of life where in the former such a avoidance may have been necessary while now in the latter I have more tools to better deal with such things. A bridge to empathy for my younger self?

    Krishnamurti notes that the “storing up of anger becomes resentment” suggesting that it isn’t anger were exploring but our resentments and disappointments? That anger or perhaps all emotions aren’t a thing, they are. That our “verbalization” of our emotions should not be confused as emotion?

    I notice as I wrote the above that when I have felt angry from a experience where anger was a valid response to the event I became afraid ,ashamed and yes resentful… which “made me” angry…repeat… Krishnamurti notes that the antidote to resentments is forgiveness. Put another way its our verbalization (I am this I am that) that requires forgiveness not the emotion. End the verbalization and I discover the emotion is gone.

    I like the idea of forgiveness as a antidote to accumulation, perhaps the accumulation of Karma. By forgiveness I do not mean forgive and forget but the process towards a honest Yes to life as it is.

    A final quote from Krishnamurti: “Anger cannot be got rid of by the action of will, for will is part of violence. Will is the outcome of desire, the craving to lie; and desire in its very nature is aggressive, dominant. To suppress anger by the exertion of will is to transfer anger to a different level, giving it a different name; but it is still part of violence. To be free from violence, which is not the cultivation of non-violence, there must be the understanding of desire.

    Something to explore for another day.

    in reply to: Enlightenment #443636
    Peter
    Participant

    Hi Tommy

    Just wanted to say I’ve appreciated reading what you had to say and style.
    I’ve also wondered about the nature of compassion. To much to little… is it something that can or should be a measurement?

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