Hi There. It does sound like you’re going through a really difficult time. I’ve definitely had my share of difficulties, and I once felt the same way you described – that I must be living wrong because my life was in such shambles. I started doing two things that completely turned my life around: 1 – I asked myself what were the things about me that I was unhappy with, and I began to take action on those things, one-by-one. 2 – I decided to start listening to my gut over my head and my heart. I feel our instincts are conversations with the universe. Once I surrendered to this belief and began to trust my gut, my instincts, above all else – I knew that I was on the right path (ie, not living wrong) and things seemed to fall into place. Do you trust and listen to your self? Or do you do like so many of us and constantly think and analyze and rationalize? It’s hard at first, but gets easier with practice. When trying to figure out what’s right for you, simply close your eyes and ask yourself your question; ignore the head and the heart and feel your truth begin to radiate in your gut. Sending lots of positive energy your way. ?