@Jake2122002 said:
But my question is I have never found a reason to live at all.

If you want to know the reason, first you have to inquire who YOU really are beyond your body and mind.

@Jake2122002 said:
I do believe in god no matter how many unbelievers read this. Something has happened in my life that would never change my mind and no one would understand. But why? Why am I living in this world of so much evil and every day I feel like I’m living in hell?

I dunno Jake dude, maybe what they said about the world as “Leela”, that the world is a playground of the One in the game of multiplicity is something you might want to contemplate first.

@Jake2122002 said:
Even when I’m happy I still feel there’s no point or reason to be here.

Playing, dancing, singing, making love, making faces….. do you need a reason for doing any of those?

@Jake2122002 said:
Whenever I think about it all I began to shake and I feel cold. Even If I made a billion dollars I still don’t think I would feel real. Everything feels like a dream to me and everything looks staged. I’ve asked for help in so many different ways and places and no one seems to understand what I’m saying. I’m so scared right now and I have no other place to go to.

Go? Where do you want to go? What’s so wrong with the place you are in now?

@Jake2122002 said:
I found this website and I hope it will help me on my journey on trying to live my fullest and fix me.

Trust me, you are perfect as you are and certainly require no fixing. Find out who you really are, my friend.

@Jake2122002 said:

Everyone says “Hey, even if nothing matters, you might as well live it to your fullest because this is your only chance.” But why? Why should I? Why should I waste my time if nothing matters anyways? Every tree, house, street, person, car, will not matter in the end?

All the answers to these questions are concealed within yourself, that’s why you have to find out first who you really are.

@Jake2122002 said:
I will see what I saw before I was born. Not black nor white. Nothing. Which leads me to a conclusion. If you were to mathematically add it all up, what would be the equation that I’m able to type this to all of ya’ll and ask my question? It would be impossible. No math equation is that long or complex. I’m no math mathmation, but I would say that it just doesn’t seem that math could add up to that. It’s to impossible of a question to ask. There’s to many complex questions to make it right. Doesn’t that seem all to fishy to you?

As fishy as the game of peekaboo, the game of hide-and-seek.

@Jake2122002 said:
If you still don’t understand what I’m trying to say, I understand completely. But that’s not why I’m here. I know you have probably read so many questions of people asking why they should live. But so have I. I answer all of those questions with the deepest part of my heart of why they should. But after that, In my mind, I don’t believe any of that for myself. I seem to want everybody else around me happy but myself and I can’t seem to find it. I do understand that what I see, I will only see once, because this is the only life that I have and it could just be all of a coincidence that this is all happening and I’m incredibly lucky to be able to understand and see what I see and know what I know. But please, I beg you and whoever for help. I will not end my life for no matter the mean answers I get from people, I just want to hear your reason on why you truly get out of bed every morning.

I have so much more to say, but I can’t type it all here at once. If you still don’t understand what I’m saying or think that I’m stupid I’d be happy to continue on my thoughts. All I want to know is, why do you stand up in the morning?

Simple, I get out of bed to honor the roles I am playing in this life. Besides, if I continue sleeping, I might get bedsores all over.

@Jake2122002 said:
What makes you feel real?

What is real? Why is important for you to feel real? You don’t need to.

@Jake2122002 said:
How do you push yourself to forget about this negative and just move on and enjoy your life no matter how it looks to you?

Simply through a realization that nothing is permanent.