Hi Merry,
Do you have a history of OCD? Your fears sound to me like ROCD (relationship OCD). The checking magazines and websites is considered a type of mental compulsion. I think you might want to avoid those, and simply try to ignore the thoughts by accepting them, causing them to lose power over time. However, it would be for the best if you saw a licensed professional.
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