“I need to feel safe and you need to feel safe too. So far where I feel safe doesn’t feel safe for you and vice versa“- a misunderstanding: I said no to Facebook and Instagram not because I feel unsafe to make it happen for the purpose of communicating with you privately, but because I don’t know how to make it happen.

I can help make it happen by creating instructions that will help you get there if you’re able to feel comfortable to do this. 

I feel very safe using the messenger app that’s attached to Facebook. I activated an old messenger account when we first talked about catching up outside of here. I didn’t activate the Facebook side of it as I wanted to test how it would work (from memory, when you joined FB you’d been contacted by people you moved a long way from to avoid and weren’t comfortable with this option, which is understandable. There are ways of avoiding people you don’t want messages from so you don’t have to hear from them) 

This account isn’t my every day FB account, it’s the one I used years ago as a filter when getting to know some people online. I would still take time sharing things about myself though but I don’t want to go into details about why just now. I’d share my name and sport though 😂 and you’d work my accent out very quickly. 

There are lots of reasons I feel safe using that way of contacting. I like it also because you can talk face to face on it or without a video feed like on the phone and it’s free. 

for me, to reach out for.. a loving personal contact (knowing your name, finally knowing what sport you’ve been talking about, what country you were born in, what country you reside in; hearing your voice, hearing the emotion in your voice and sharing mine, etc.), and to be ignored or rejected is a painful experience.

I am not ignoring or rejecting you. I truly am not. 

It seems to me that you don’t trust me personally (on email) with the kind of information I mentioned right above, as if you think that I could be a bad person who will use information you provide to harm you.

I don’t think you’re bad. I suppose to an extent I don’t trust anyone online. Not like I would if we’d met in real life and got to know each other. I am cautious of all online contacts. I might be overly cautious and I don’t know how to change that. Up till now I haven’t felt the need to change it and this thought has caused me a fair amount of angst trying to put myself there. 

I don’t want you to take my cautiousness personally or to heart. It is so I am and it’s not my intention that it hurt or upset you. And I’d prefer the messenger than email because it’s in my comfort zone which might not be yours. 

What part of you- that you think I misunderstood- would you like me to understand? anita

I never intended to seem like I was ignoring or didn’t care that you were reaching out.

I am writing to let you know I’ve read everything and I’m not sure how to reply. I’m going to think on it to be as sure as I can that I reply to what’s important, rather than reply in a defensive way because I feel hurt. Thank you for sharing this with me even if it’s hard for me to read.

PS in my airfryer excitement the fry pan side of my frozen food meal got forgotten. It’s very well done 😂

I’m kicking goals tonight, nutritionist extraordinaire!

I hadn’t thought about that but now I’m intrigued. I imagine you have a little bit of an Israeli twang to your American accent – also I struggle to tell the differences in what area Americans come from because all non Americans just think ‘America’ 😂

Do you have and instagram account? I’m trying to think of third party ways to connect.

Aaah you learned to wiggle your hips! Good work.

Nothing exciting happened today but I feel happy. Weird. Strange. Unusual. Loving it!

Oh the beautiful sunshine, pot of coffee, fur people everywhere! Still no sign of Anita so I think I’ll down the other cup 🤎

I have to work shortly. Great. NOT.

but sore shoulder because I keep (not willingly) twitching it.

I don’t know what things would help your heart to feel relaxed enough your shoulder doesn’t have to feel like it needs to be on high alert, always ready to fight the battles, or swing you up high to safety, but I would do the things that I don’t know what are to help.

So, last evening: the David Broza idea couldn’t, wouldn’t work with the karaoke system.

I love that your karaoke has so many diverse songs!

So, I sang Ani Veata, like the last time, and then, I got another adventurous spirit to sing with me, as in a duet, my favorite two songs: Simple Man and Long Train Runnin’. Being that my singing voice is devoid of range (amazingly so), objectively speaking, my singing was terrible. But that’s what’s alcohol is about: forget the judgment and instead, be a legend in my own mind!

You’re so funny with your descriptions and I’m sure it’s not as bad as you say. Legend in your own lunch box!

I talked with a woman there whose sister’s birthday is not only on the same day and month as mine, but also on the same year. never came across that before!

Happy birthday to the both of you on that fine day.

The guy who said he’s a Nut was there with his wife, the one I told you about before. I did let him buy my 3rd glass of wine, which brought me to the point where I don’t remember being driven back home. Thankfully, I wasn’t sick as in nauseous, but was close.

So even nuts can find wives 😂 😂 😂 I’m glad you survived the indulging without getting sick!

although no very-talent is required when you are born into one language and later, learn another, and.. your brain CAN language if there was a use, or a purpose for you learning another language.

I’m pretty sure if my survival depended on learning another language I’d die out 😂

I don’t know how I missed the email from your message this morning, but I did. I had a lazy morning with the nicest coffee and cream, because I ran out of milk. Then I ran late for my sport which went so very well in still walking on sunshine.

I went and saw Twisters at the movies as well. It’s totally not my kind of movie but it was pretty good. We have this lovely old theatre that was done up a few years back. They did it up to be what it would have been like in the olden days. It’s beautiful and one of my favourite things to do. Even if the movie is stink 😂

Somewhere in this very busy day I also managed to do the hours of work. I wish I could post a picture of all my fur people sitting on my desk keeping me company.

AND THEN, ANITA, THEN!!! YES I’M SHOUTING! SHOUTING TO THE MOUNTAIN TOPS!!!! My son sent a message yes to coffee!!!!!!! I can’t wipe the silly smile off my face. I only just read the message. You were right, inaction begat inaction, just like Abraham begat Isaac. I wonder what that says about Abraham 😂 😂 😂

I hope your day was marvellous. Hopefully your shoulder isn’t so sore. Massages, palm fronds to fan you, pots of soothing herbal tea, and a good old natter in the sun on my porch. Maybe you’ll have the chance to relax and feel the afternoon seep into your bones. Oh, and lots of zucchini slice because I doubled the recipe! So not even having to cook too entertain you 😂

Worry from home 😂 😂 😂 that’s appropriate 😂 not it was meant to be work

<p style=”text-align: left;”>I think I’ve heard long train running, it sounds familiar.</p>
You’re hilarious. My internet is still working so your singing didn’t shut it down 😂

Your David fellow’s songs are very pretty. You’re very talented having more than one language. This is as close to jealousy as I ever get! I wish my brain could language!

I wonder if you’ve sung yet. How it went. I don’t think you’re quite at your evening yet but I’m hopeless at working out time differences. It’s just cool that occasionally we’re awake at the same time!

Aaargh. Car! Easily forgotten when it’s such a boring thing to do!