Hi there M! And Erin!

I read your story and felt completely connected, as this is my current situation to a T. I’ve known my currently ex boyfriend for 10 years, and he was my absolute best friend. but I’ve completely shattered his heart and he’s really hurt right now. but the problem is, I’m so unsure of what I want in life. He can be jealous, so sometimes he prevents me from doing things when he truly doesn’t mean to. but I’ve never been treated like such gold in my life, he makes me feel like a princess, he makes me feel safe, and he absolutely makes me feel so loved. I felt like I wanted to explore the world more, I wanted to be young and careless and have fun, but at the time time I think I could do those things with him and be really happy if I just tried, because he always tried so hard for me. I think that was once of our biggest problems that I hate to admit. I have struggled with severe depression all my life, and when we got together, I fell into a very comfortable place, I gained 70lbs, which was devastating for me because I’ve always struggled with my weight and had just lost 60lbs, I really let myself go. He always put 100% in and I always tried to, but I felt so discouraged and disconnected from who I truly was. And I just feel like if I really really, reaaaallly tried, things could work out. I know I could be so happy with him, I still see myself marrying him and building a family with him. But at the same time, there’s a lot of little things that get to me. he always wants to be right, he hates being embarrassed, and we sometimes won’t let the little things go, but they are just those little things that add up. This is the second time I’ve broken up with him because I’m just so unsure. But I’m not just unsure about him, it’s life in general. I don’t know what path I want to take for the future as I’m only just 20. So I don’t know if I’m really unsure about him, or if it’s just my whole life I’m unsure about, which is resulting in me being unsure about him. Anyways, I love him with all my heart and I’d do anything for him, and I just really really miss him.

I just wanted to know, since it’s been years since this breakup for you, how you feel? do you regret it? was it worth it? do you miss him? or are you happy and do you know you made the right decision?

Thanks!! Lots of love, Sage.