Hi Vlad. Surely this can’t be the UK or US or any European country. In the UK those work conditions would be jumped on, that is if they were brought to the notice of the authorities.
Gaining a reputation as a good and valuable worker has not got a lot to do with lack of oxygen or a good working environment. You will be spending a lot of time there so have a word with the management. A nice polite enquiry should not go amiss.

No Midnight. You must get the thought that you are different or abnormal or in some way strange out of your mind. I have heard your story so often that it never surprises me. When I said about confusing love with need perhaps I should have explained better. We all have needs, emotional, physical and spiritual. Now these needs must be met or we become introverted, self centred or even anxious and depressed. The natural expression of a need is necessary for a healthy mind. Now if you have love for someone that does not mean that you can’t look to them to fulfil those needs. Of course you can. That’s what relationships and partnerships are about. When I talked of attachment that is a different matter. Attachment is total reliance on another person or thing. You are unable to give them space of their own. It becomes overwhelming for them. ‘Smother love’ is a good example. A mother loves her child, but is continually looking after it. cosseting it, makings sure it’s safe beyond all normal caring. She has become so attached to the child that it has become almost an obsession. The child enjoys this attention even though it has no ‘space’ of it’s own and can grow into a psychologically disturbed person in later life. We all need space of our own to be us. We need to give our partners space, freedom to be themselves.
Of course I believe you love your partner. Why would I not think so when you come over so loud and clear that you do. You may be projecting on to me, (psychological projection), what you feel yourself, doubt. In fact you say just that. It’s one of your biggest fears. Love the guy. the more love you give the more is returned. It an age old axiom.
It IS NOT unhealthy to think that way.
What I said about labels is that we are so open to suggestion when anxious. If you Google your feelings and symptoms you are making a big mistake. No one is the same and there is no ‘cover all’ for any emotional problem. You have to be treated as an individual. You will be OK if you can take things as they come and not anticipate. Easy? Oh no, not by any means; been there.

Yes Hablu Exactly! There’s a little poem that has always intrigued me because it is so full of meaning. But before I quote it let me say I am NOT religious in the generally accepted sense of the word, and am not trying to push religion. On the contrary religion can muddy the waters of true spirituality. It’s so often used as a power base to influence others.

“The Shell”
If thou could empty self of self like unto a shell dishabited,
then would He come and find thee on some ocean shelf and say, ‘this is not dead” and fill thee with himself instead.
But thou art so very full of thou and have such shrewd activity
that when he comes he’ll say, ‘Tis so very small and full and has such shrewd activity,
best let it be, it is so full and has no need of me’ ”

How many of us have shrewd activity? How many ‘full of ourselves’? How often do we put the other person first or try and understand how they feel?
You are so right. It matters not a jot how many possessions you have or who loves you and who doesn’t; it’s all about how you feel in yourself. St. Augustine said, “Love, and do what thou wilt”. This was not a license for abandoned living, because if whatever you do you do from unconditional Love you can do not wrong, to yourself or any other.

Hi Tammy. I am not going ‘religious’ on you’ but the words “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive others who trespass against us” comes to mind. If by arrogance you mean being assertive then that is no bad thing especially in a woman. But arrogance in the sense of always being right and riding roughshod over others is not good.
I don’t honestly think you are that kind of person, and may be beating yourself up without cause. We all say and do things we may regret and if we can make amends and feel we need to apologise then we should. But you must not believe YOU are always in the wrong. Sometimes it may harm being done to you. Only you will know that.