Hi Anita,

It’s been a while. There’s a lot going on around in the world. I hope you are safe and healthy. I’m still trying to figure out what I want from my life. I don’t know if I can call it soul searching. But let’s just say I’m Soul Searching for now. I’ve been taking counselling for a while now. It’s not a drastic improvement. But a little. I might forgive my BF for the betrayal. But I do want to be friends with him. After all, we do have to work together. I did mention him that. Let’s see. He seems a little stressed with work. I took a few days off because of a lot of bad news from my family. Lost my aunt to Covid. Many cousins tested positive but not serious. Just trying to be as sane as possible. I did give a demo class to be an online tutor. There’s that. Felt like I could do a lot more than just the company with my BF. I think now try to refer him to something else than BF. I’m trying new things. And am being open to new opportunities. Let’s see where life takes me. Do write to me sometimes when you are free. Hope you are having a nice day.

Satya

Thanks Miriam. I am thinking the same way.

Yes. I meant the email address. Thank you so much. I really felt like I’ve found a friend in you, Anita. So I asked for your email address. If you don’t feel comfortable sharing, it’s okay.

Hahaha… Thank you so much, Anita… Yes, I’m in India. Drop-in your mail id..

Dear Peggy,

I know, but turning 29, single, not very financially stable, and feeling the need for someone to be with me but when that’s also going down the hill, it’s scary. Yes, there’s a big wide world waiting, maybe not for me. All my friends are telling me “this guy doesn’t deserve you”, then “who does?”

I found one compatible and understanding person(my bf), and he’s married now.

I feel so confused. I still have a little hope left. Let’s see.

But for now, I have to work with him, so can’t run from this situation.

I mean, He thinks he did all right so far. He thinks whatever he did is for the best of everyone. But he gave me pain and suffering. He says he will suffer with me if I am suffering..and he is. He knows he put me through all this, but he thinks I’m stuck at labels. He is asking me if I want labels or him. He is saying that his wife knows and she’s letting him come to me, but how is she able to do it. So I have to talk to her, ask her what she knows about me, how she will take it if we are living together, how will she process of him being married to me as well. He thinks his wife is okay with this. With all of this. But I couldn’t. So I want to know her. I can’t trust him until I talk to his wife. I trusted once and he brought me here in this situation. We are work partners too. My life stopped for the past 4 days. I should get back to work. But that is also with him. I am thinking that if at all his wife has issues with me and if she asks me to go away, I will leave everything and move. Because I have gone through hell the past 4 days thinking about how my future will be and all the pain I’ll have all the time. I can’t let another woman go through it, it’s torturous. But if she accepts me, if she thinks we all can be happy as he said, then I would ask him how he will convince everyone. What will he tell my parents and her parents. I have a gut feeling that either 1)his wife says no or 2)she might let him go or 3)he can’t convince and then I’ll ask him to find me a husband. Because I moved cities and convinced and lied to my parents just to be with him. He told he will take all the responsibility. He was married by the time I was about to move. He knows that I moved for him. He got married in November and after 2 months he told me 4 days back all that. He thought I would eventually understand and let him fix everything. All this conflict in my head is too much. Please tell me if I’m processing things fine.