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    Suzanne
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    Anita I was reading the beautiful response you wrote me. I have to tell you it’s the middle of the night and I grabbed some strawberries to eat. I read what you wrote while eating them. I smiled and felt happiness when I read that. A small thing a strawberry giving me hope that I’m not alone. I’m not crazy for feeling these terrible feelings. I have panic attacks lately so I realized I need to keep things simple. Make sure my pets (dog and Parrot) are well taken care of. That I am eating and drinking water and I am in AA (sober since I was 21 long time lol) so try to go to meetings. That I shower brush my teeth shower. I’m a dog walker so walk dogs to keep making money which is a good job now animals and walking. I can’t worry about all the documents and this house that needs so much work. I need a break from that at least a couple of days. I get glimpses of hope usually from outside things not from my husband which I am realizing how dependent I am on him. My son is in Japan and they have the most delicious strawberries there. They were like $20 for a carton but I was blown away by the taste. And tonight these strawberries were almost as good so your comment about strawberries really made me smile. I hope this makes sense ;). Suzanne

    #446697
    Suzanne
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    Hi Aleesa. I am in a great deal of pain still. As the days go on I find all these sneaky things. My husband was doing while we were married. I sort of shut down again. I need spiritual help. I’ll look at these books. My husband has shut me out and through a bill I realized he took the new female away. It’s too big for me because I love him and I know he doesn’t love me because someone who loves someone would never do this. I almost wanted to walk away from everything and join some community for peace because I am in hell with the house the silence and the fear. I will read these books. I feel very alone and he won whatever war he had with me. I’ll be here more it gives me some hope. 😉 Suzanne

    #445611
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    Anita this is the most beautiful thing I’ve read that you have written. Radical acceptance is what will help me. Today Mother’s Day I see his family I have been a part of for 30 years aren’t reaching out to me. And I feel they never really liked me. Another goodbye. But I get stuck in what ifs and what I think his family should do. I just get angry and hurt in a different way. It’s not helping me let go. So today he is not here. His family is not reaching out. But my daughter and my friends are helping me. Do you know of a book that I can read? You have been so helpful. I feel like when I read what you wrote there is a fishing line pulling me back to myself and feel a little more grounded. Thank you again. Suzanne.

    #445599
    Suzanne
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    Thank you for your words that help me. He left me for a much younger woman. That adds to my devastation. It’s mom’s day my daughter is next to me sleeping. She is in her 20s. When our eyes meet the pain we both share I feel. I need to see a lawyer and tomorrow my friend is coming with me. I keep seeking comfort from a power greater than me. I wear my emotions on my sleeve and I’m always letting them out. And that can be a problem.

    #445594
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    Thank you 🙏

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