Thank you for the reply.

Real world as in , i had a very simple childhood. Come home and food ready by mom. Have fun. Now i have to work for everything. Blanket as in they were always there, So i never felt alone in any situation.

Thank you for the reply.

I had a very secured childhood. My parents and elder sister (5 years) took very good care of me. We had some rough times in my family as in finances, but it was okay. I have never lived away from them. When i moved to Canada, 4 years back. as the first time i left my home. But i didnt feel homesick all these years when i was here (2014-2017 july). this is since my parents left.

I am very confused, am i having anxiety because i dont want to be with him or my anxiety is telling me that something is wrong and i need to leave him. I dont have any reason to leave, The only reason i can think of is that he is not from my culture, We dont speak the same language? But our values are the same. Regarding Finances, Children, Family , Holidays, etc.

I am very scared!

In the end, i just want to say that i dont want to loose him. I dont know the reason. I dont want to throw away what i have made with him so far in our lives. Am i just forcing my feelings to him? Or anxiety and depression can actually make you feel disconnected towards your partner.

@anita :

Thank you for your reply. I have nothing specific to Bother. Just that when we have marriage and kids? How they will be? Will they have same values what i had from my parents? I worry about small small thing, like language.

Just that may be i would not be able to stay in the same indian atmosphere for all my life? But i know now that this might all be my anxiety speaking. Because all these are what if’s? My  doctor said that if we dont love someone, We dont think so much for leaving them. The questions in my mind(anxiety) says that I do love him and want to work out.

Thanks once again.

@ Eliana: Thank you for your reply 🙂

Yes, I truly think that i am myself little unsatisfied with my life at the moment. The life that i wanted from myself (as an individual), I didn’t achieve that. I think that i am trying to push everything on him for me not being happy and concluding that i am not happy because of this relationship.

@Anita: Thank you for your reply.

I know he is not ready for marriage right now, I want to. But we both are not even financially stable to get married right now. We both want to have both culture marriages. I have dreams of my marriage. So i dont mind, waiting. We both have a set age, that we want to get married by then.

The commitment which this person has showed me till now, proved me that i can wait for the marriage. I have not been at my  best past 6 months. And he was always with me. Just that recently he is loosing the patience, and i dont blame him for that. If i was at his place, i dont know what i would have done to see a crying bf all the time.