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January 14, 2015 at 1:59 pm #71354
I really wish I had answers for you but sadly I do not. I am struggling with my loss on a daily basis and the only thing I can hold on to is that indeed it will be ok in time.
Can you tell me a little more about yourself and your boyfriend, where are you from? Did you meet him in India? Has he visited outside of India? How long have you been together? Did you meet his parents?
It is so awful that these things still happen and yes the heartbreak does feel unbearable and it feels as though no one could possibly understand. …
It feels for me sometimes as though I will never find happiness again but all I can do is keep plodding along, keep alive and hope one day things will be better. There simply is nothing else to do.December 5, 2014 at 6:10 am #68800
Thank you Jasmine for your kind and helpful words. They mean a lot. Slowly I am realising that this may have been a blessing, I must have been meant for other things. I understand and respect what you said about my boyfriend not choosing our love. However I could never blame or think badly about his decision as ultimately it was not his decision. His life, is culture is more difficult and different than I can perhaos ever understand and I would not want to be the only thing in his life. He does not know life outside of India so I could not ask him to give it all up and step into the unknown. I will always have a special place for him in my heart but I am starting to believe that my life is going to be something more. I have started brainstorming and thinking about my passions and where my life may take me now.
For the first time in a long time I am excited and hopeful and I have started to meditate again and make peace with this life again.
Thank you Matt for your concern. I am doing well today. I am feeling hopeful and thankful and I am beginning to believe in living again. It has been my greatest struggle so far but I feel it will be ok. I am so grateful for so many people and things.
So thank you. It is good people that make me happy about this world. I will be ok 🙂November 30, 2014 at 3:52 pm #68580
It has been seven weeks since this all happened and me and my boyfriend had to split. It has been extremely difficult and I feel like I have made no progress.
I feel like I am lost. I am grieving for the loss of my boyfriend, his family and a home I thought was mine also. I am grieving for our future, for my future. All my memories of India, the language, the culture, all the things I had to learn mean nothing now.
I have no idea where I am supposed to go now or what I am supposed to do. I currently do not have a job,and I can’t seem to make a decision on where to look for one. I can’t make a decision to do anything.
It feels like my future is bleak and I don’t want to take a step forward into my disappointing life.
I thought my life was going to be an adventure with the love of my life and now it feels like it will be disappointing.
I have no dreams. My dreams have been taken away.
Please, does anyone have any words to help me through this. I am so lost.October 18, 2014 at 10:26 am #66419
Thank you Jasmine, your kind words mean a lot.
Yes I will keep looking for blessings, they are what are giving me strength at the moment. I appreciate that I was given this chance to love and be loved and I gave my everything to this relationship. Right now I feel so grateful for all the support and understanding from my family and friends.
Thank you for taking the time to post, I really appreciate it 🙂