Why don’t u involve urself in chanting or meditating. As anandita mentioned about sgi, even am member of this wonderful organization. U said u avoid people…but u will have to deal with this… you will have to come out from this shell. Most depressions can be dealt with one’s own determination to recover. I would suggest u to become part of some mediation camp or buddhist chanting group like sgi. People are non judgemental and in such spiritual groups. Take actions to help youself then to just sit before pc and cribbing about depression. More you think that you are depressed more u will get into self pity. sorry if i am rude.