Hi,

I just hate this. I want to feel loved and love him like we did in the summer. And I honestly just feel terrible everyday. He was my best friend, and I feel like I ruined everything. I feel like crying all the time. I hate how im doing this, he loves me so much and now its all ruined. I feel just utter sadness and emptiness all the time. I am getting anxiety medication and seeing a therapist, but I now am afraid ill never feel the same again. This summer was the best time of my life. And nothing changed for him, he feels exactly the same for me. Why can’t I???

Dear Anita,

Currently my boyfriend and I are still talking, but its not the same. He is very short, and feels we can only get back to where we were when I feel less anxious and worried all the time. I feel like talking like this (not together, him being bland)  is distancing us more and my mind keeps telling me that I’m fine without him. I keep telling him I won’t get better when we are acting like strangers, but he insists that he’s been too hurt and he can’t act like nothing is wrong. Texting him is terrible because it has gotten so boring and bland. I sometimes don’t answer for a while because of this. I want to get those feelings back but its like a fight with my brain.

I have gone to my school’s counseling center and also am going to see one from home, and I really hope this helps. I feel like our love is fading everyday and I’m holding onto memories.