Hi Sarah, I relate so deeply to what you have relayed about your beautiful dog Molly.  I honestly feel the loss of an animal that is so precious is one of the hardest and cruelest things a person can go through.  I too have lost animals that I’ve loved beyond words and losing them doesn’t get any easier no matter how many times I’ve been through it….  I hope that by now some other lucky dog is living the good life with you.  My loss is only a few months ago and I am still finding the pain of missing her utterly crippling…  lots of tears, lots of guilt, lots of regret… and silent lonliness that goes on and on..   I often say that I love having them but I’m not good at losing them.  The love I had for my little cherub was intense, and like you, I had her euthanased.  Take care x