My friend you are very young and what you are going through is a phase of self doubt and lack of confidence. Don’t get bogged down by these issues. With little bit of planning and meditation 🧘‍♂️ you can come out of the shell that you’ve built around yourself.  You have a long way to go and there may be more difficulties ahead so don’t give up. Dont lose hope and write down your thoughts and try overcoming all your issues one by one,Don’t be harsh on yourself and stop doubting yourself. Try seeking help online and indulge yourself in things that you like. A healthy mind is the first step 🚶‍♂️.

I wish you the best.

Suman