Veronica,

Congratulations on your decision. Just out of curiosity, now that you’ve taken the position, what are the two jobs? You don’t have to mention company names but I’m wondering what the actual work for the two positions are.

I personally would have taken the higher salary and saved up the money to create a business that contained the elements of option #2 that you favored. That way you would have the adventure and you would be your own boss.

Surfingwig,

Oh man I hate that micromanaging shit too! I had a boss that would literally crap on everything I do if I didn’t do it the EXACT way they wanted, even if I could arrive at the same conclusion doing it slightly different. Meanwhile, my position was supposed to be a “leadership” position that required me to use my own creativity – and this boss had the audacity to bring up my lack of confidence in the performance evaluation. No shit! After criticizing everything I do for 2 years straight, how can I be confident???

It sounds like you have some amazing talents. You made a 200k deal selling real estate? Wow that is an incredible achievement! Plenty people would crap their pants at the idea of attempting to persuade a client into a big money deal. Your clients liked you – sounds like great people skills.

I can relate to your feelings of anger and frustration. Something I think to myself “you aint shit! You should be so much further along in life than you are, how can you even look yourself in the mirror”. It’s very tough to deal with those voices sometimes.
Holidays are tough for me. I’ve dealt with social anxiety on and off throughout my life, so having to sit around big dinners and hold chit chat conversation with people is quite the task lol. I’d much rather be relaxing somewhere by myself. And Monday I get to go meet my girlfriend’s family for the first time, and when they ask me what I do for a living, I’ve got to say some bullshit to get around my unemployed condition.

By the way, sounds like you know how to cook – another skill you have. Good people skills, leadership experience, culinary skills. I’m just putting it all together. Ever tried restaurant management? A nice low stress career! (not really lol).

Happy Holidays to you. 2017 is our year to get over this crap man.

For months and months I’ve been reading this board, and enjoyed doing so. But I identify so much with what surfingwig is going through that I had to create an account and chime in.

surfingwig,

I’m in a very similar situation – had alot of bad experiences with supervisors/bosses throughout my work career – resulting in some kind of CPTSD, can’t find the right career path to suit my personality and skill set, money getting extremely short, and trying to hold onto some kind of hope that there’s an answer. It is very frustrating not having the finances to move forward with your life and relationships. It feels like you’re sitting inside of a prison cell and there appears to be no key.

I’m learning alot just by reading your dialogue with Anita. Until we can figure out how to deal with this stuff, all I can say is thank God for parent’s guest houses/guest rooms.