The pain your dealing with sounds heartbreaking.
I have a feeling your both like me and that’s
codependent. Love doesn’t hurt this bad. The right lady for you won’t put you through this much pain. I think seeing her and talking to each other is just making it all hurt more and the inevitable drag on longer. Breaking up hurts terribly but you both need to find another person to help the hurt not each other. The right love feels great and holding on to this relationship is just holding you back from finding her. Good luck to you! Remember this: Beautiful pictures are developed from negatives in complete darkness. Just like pictures your life may be going through some dark negative times but it’s preparing you for a beautiful future. Hold on to that thought as your heart heals from this pain.