Hi Sarah. I know this post is 2 years old but i know you still feel as it was yesterday that your dog died and you still miss her.You are not alone.I had one dog.One beautiful little dog called Fleki.He was our first dog.Im only 15.After my parents divorced,i felt like shit and that im alone,but then my mom brought Fleki home in 2012 . And he was a little bit scared because he was just a baby but also very adventurous he was always sniffing and playing and chewing.And he made my life 10000% better as it was before.He played with me and my brother.He comforted me when i was crying,he was scratching at my door when it was time to wake up to go to school.And those 5 years that he was with me and my family.Those were the most beautiful 5 years i can possibly imagine.But then he got sick,he got the disease called babesia and he was in such pain i cant describe you.he couldnt breathe.we all knew that hes not gonna make it but we still hoped somehow he will survive.But he wasnt strong enough and my baby boy died yesterday at 1pm. I was at school when my grandma called me that he passed away. Then when i came how everyone was crying and i wanted to see him for the last time.so i said to my mom and my stepdad to take mo to veterinarian.and he was just lying there looking at me and smilling. Those were the worst minutes of my life.we couldnt eat we couldnt sleep and i dont know if it would get better he was my little companion and i said to him when he was lying there ,i said Fleki thank you for everything thank you for being there with my at my hardest moments of my life when my dad passd away thank you for making my day better just looking me with those gorgeous brown eyes and thank you for just being you i wont forget you i love you. I miss him so much he was so smart and we are all in shock. I apologize for my bad english