Hey, firstly I want to say that I hope all has been well. I am currently kind of in a situation like yours except with my (now ex) girlfriend. Had an amazing relationship for 4 years then suddenly in the matter of a week, it all went to shit. Through my search on finding out whether or not we can get back together I found Agnes Vivarelli on Youtube. If you haven’t and are still looking to get back with the guy in your original post, you can do it. Nothing is ever set in stone. A lot of it has to do with your limiting beliefs. I would start out by watching Agnes’s videos on “Everyone is you pushed out”. Basically it comes down to the fact that everyone in our life is a simple reflection of our inner beliefs and thoughts. I strongly hope you are doing better in life and please, please, please, do not harm yourself. If you really want to get that guy back, go through Agnes’s videos and decide for yourself. I decided that even if I had a 0.000001% chance of getting my girl back, I was going to do it (and still am in the process of doing so by fixing my beliefs, I don’t think I mentioned but she also got together with some new kid less than 6 months after our breakup). I wanted to also encourage you to read the Holy Gospels of Jesus Christ because there is priceless knowledge that can be found within them. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me” – Philipians 4-13. May our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ guide and protect you through your journey in life. I wish you the best in your endeavours. You got this!