Thank you Terkatt and Rock Banana for your replies!! I’m sorry it took me a while to reply but I have been thinking about you both said.
RB I think the emotional turbulence is situational. I’m going through a bit of a transitional period in my life where I’ve been making decisions I’m passionate about but haven’t had a lot of support from friends or family. So I guess I was just trying to cling to whatever support I have no matter what guise (friends or more) it comes in I guess? I’ve realized that now and maybe I need to let go of her as a source of support and either look elsewhere or accept that I’m just going to have to do this on my own.
Terkatt- Thank you so much for sharing your story! It does mean a lot. I’m really glad you could get closer to a place where you were able to appreciate her for who she was with without any expectations. I think that is also what I need to be working towards!
Lots of love to you both for taking out the time to reply!
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