Anita,

The job was with a catering company which happen to be contracted with a private school. my duties were to wash some morning dishes from residents (Sisters) and prep for serving lunch to residents living in a nursing home type setting. I have to make sure that certain residents get certain meals for health reasons, I wash afternoon dishes and at the end of the shift I do inventory. In all honesty I don’t know why I was scared, I just knew I was. It was something about working in the nursing home part for a bit during the day, even it was just for a few minutes (25 minutes at most)

I have Depression and Anxiety so I don’t know if those played a factor in why I was afraid but here’s the background of what’s happening overall. Last year my mother had cancer (She’s better now) during that time I took off work a lot to take care of her (mainly making her meals). Just before I got this job, my Father lost his, so now it feels like everything is my fault with money being tight at home (I have three older siblings who live with me too and are employed)

I don’t know if my fears were triggered because seeing some of the Sisters in the treatment center reminded me of my mother. I felt constricted, I would work five days a week (including holidays) around thirty hours. I felt that there would never be time for other things anymore (I’m really trying to become a writer and I felt the schedule would prevent me from working on that goal)