Hi Nikki – –

This is what I read in your post.  You’ve experienced an incredibly difficult, heart wrenching life event.  You survived. Your former fiance survived.  In the midst of this emotioal turmoil, you had the strength to do what was necessary to care for yourself.  You have a job, an apartment, family, friends, and most of all you have yourself: someone who from what I can tell is pretty darn resilient and resourceful.   You have NOT lost everything.  It just hurts; you’re expressing a natural emotional response.

You now have the experience, the knowledge, to share this experience with others; and there are so many others who do not have the resilience and resourcefulness you’ve shown.  There are so many others who experience incredibly difficult, heart wrenching life events, and they’ve never known love, don’t know this precious gift alone is enough to pull you through.  And many don’t.  They don’t survive.  You will.  And you will share your love, your strength, your resilience, your resourcefulness with others and you will know love again.  In fact, you know it now.

Cry, get mad, break something if it helps.  Then laugh, even if you don’t feel like it.  Hug someone who needs it.  Seek out someone you can help.  You’ve got so much to give don’t let it be consumed by this emotional time.