You sound like a strong one! I understand this feeling, because I’ve felt it myself. I think a good thing to look at is how you’re living your life right now. Is your daily life based around this problem you’re experiencing? Or are you taking the steps you need to take in order to live a happy and fulfilled life for yourself? I believe the latter of the two is where you need to be. The conclusion that I reached was that it was unfair to myself to float around an old flame hoping to salvage the relationship- be it rekindling what we had or beginning as friends again.

If you feel stuck, and the center of your universe at this present moment is how you can’t fully heal or move on from your soul mate, then consider yourself lucky! You’ve come a long way and are blessed with one final choice in the matter. Either maintain your unhappiness of living in the past and living with what you don’t have – or – Make the decision to be your best you regardless of any situation- naturally, what you want, if it’s truly what you need, will attract to you. No one wants a soggy mess following them and their new lover around. You need know that you have everything you need to be happy right now. Happiness is a choice after all.

Lastly, attach no agenda to your reinvention. You might want this man in some form or fashion, but truly honoring yourself might bring a new man into your life, one that will be who you want and need, a true friend and lover. Honoring yourself and choosing happiness and progress is likely to yield the results you want/need, but not necessarily in the form that you’ve envisioned them manifesting. Sometimes love manifests as a job opportunity in another town where you meet someone new. It is important to be open and aware to these gifts from the Universe, they are your creations, and once again the choice is yours whether you notice them/accept them or not. Do not swoon over the thought of being with your soul mate again unless it is a direct result of you honoring yourself 100%. Not 99.9%, 100%. Trying to force the situation/moment into such a box will only distort the power of your creation that comes with choosing genuine happiness and being true to you- you might overlook the gifts that didn’t fit within the scope of the reality that you’ve desired. Choose happiness and let it fuel your reinvention and evolution, go with the flow of creation that it brings- if this man is truly your soulmate, he will see the strength and wisdom that you employ as his own and will do what needs to done.

If all else fails, YouTube Alan Watts.

With love.