Hi Anita

many thanks as always. most of what you said is true and the universe doesn’t reward me or give me credit for things that i have tried and things i thought was right to do in the past – I know! 5 years on and still counting LOL 😉

Hi Ankitoberoi

Thank you for your posting and the helpful link. i agree with you, my confidence was at an all time low and it took me quite a long long while to get it back after losing my job. I also think it is a gender thing, guys are more likely to bounce back with confidence quicker.

Hi Anita,

Yes I was resentful but did nothing! That is what I regret as I said before, not standing up for myself, my friends at work told me to resign many times and not to put up with it. In A large company if you put in a complaint about anything or anyone, you are as good as gone. They will see you as the problem who is difficult to work with. I know I seem it happen to other staff members, once they have voiced up something negative, they have been dismissed, citing cutting costs reasons. When I left, this shocked them too as they didn’t think it would happen they did want me to stay! I had texts coming from them saying they missed me cos they are overload with work! How funny is that! So I guess they did what what they did because they never thought I would be let go. No one is going to thank you for doing their work. They just grumbled about their work load instead and how tired they are. I want to point out, I am not the only victim, my friends were treated like this too loaded with work by the more popular (but lazy) colleagues ( all best buds btw also not in my favour is that one of which is related to a senior partner) Management don’t care too many departments to handle. My post is hardly the end of the world to the organisation. I leave, many more can refill my role. A lot of egos at work. Like I said its high school all over again, make sure your friends are looked after.

Hi VJ

Thank you so so much for taking the time to reply to my posting!! I will try to do the best to answer your questions and using your numbering system.

1. My understanding of the law of attraction is you attract what you feel. so if you are happy for example, you attract other happy situations into your life. likewise if i want to use the law of attraction to attract a job, i would have to declare this to the universe and believe that it is possible for me providing i do the work too and not merely wishing it. From all the books I have read, I really really believed it was an universal truth that the law of attraction happens whether you are actively involved or not. Now I am not so sure.

2. the emotions i am feeling, most of all is being ignored, being old and unwanted, hopelessness, unfairness, unlucky, fear that I will never work again and live in poverty and shame especially compared to others who are able to find a job reasonably quickly. When people complain about their work lives, I want to switch off because I think they are unnecessarily ungrateful. I am forever their cheerleader telling them that life is ok really and that it could be worse. what feelings i am taking from this? I feel sometimes that it isn’t fair that they get to display such negativity and still attract such a great outcome. I practiced gratitude and lost my job.

3) I have always been an administrator/secretary so I don’t mind sticking to the same job especially since i am not young and cannot afford to start over again. i did however tried to find jobs as a writer, just to see if I can change fields but my applications have been ignored.

4) I think, non-work related strengths wise, i am a good friend, i cheer people up when they are down and would help friends out in a heart beat. Also I suppose, I can make people laugh. I am good with planning stuff and researching places to go for family and friends.

5) I am bothered that i am wasting money on self- improvement all the time and am a sucker for believing their claims. Another bad point is I supposed I get really disappointed if I tried some strategy to the t and results do not happen. I am also stupidity influenced if someone say something bad about me, or as in a tarot card reading and fortune tellers, I know it’s silly but I can’t help it. I tend to feel envy when people are doing so well in life and I think they are wondering what has happened to me. Why don’t people like me enough to hire me for any job?

6) I could be a better daughter and stop spending money on non essential stuff like iTunes and stop worrying about how others view me as a failure.

7) I guess there are, I don’t think i have learnt everything i need to know about life – it is never-ending. I must be doing something wrong if I cant get the results I want.

8) looking at the list is embarrassing as it shows how hard i am trying! i hope i don’t get pulled in with promises of yet another life changing course! Aside from EFT, chakra healing, gratttude diary, numerology, working with crystals, feng shui, career coach, daily mediation I have also tried the havening technique For Letting go of the past ( very good btw) using several hypnotising CDs, doing tai chi three times a week and am currently reading about ACT. Courses which I have been on includes Lucky Bitch Boot Camp online and some other empowering women to take control of their finances thing.

9) I read a lot of history and truthfully i am grateful for me in the now compared to what people had in the past and thankful my problems do not include living through wars and famine. When thanking my friends i am truly grateful because they don’t have to help me but they do, so it is genuine. I always find something to be truly thankful for because I have been practicing it for more than 5 years now. It is just sometimes I feel overwhelmed at constantly hitting myself metaphorically against a brick wall.

Thank you for asking me these questions, I hope I have answered them properly and look forward to your insight and ideas.